used to be

expectations... desires... fairy tale dreams...

sometimes in real life, it appears as though 'happily ever after' has come... until you slowly see the surface faded and the inner beauty and brokenness exposed...

whatever happened to the un-changing and unconditional love... =] this is from God. Amen. thank God there's a love that never changes... thank God that i have a Him who is the Lover of my soul... Love u, Jesus!

my problem or yours - not both

you either don't know you're soft, don't bother speaking clearly or just plain darn loud.

-.- can't be bothered. i don't want to have expectations of anything - now, tomorrow nor in future.

what is beautiful?

is pretty beautiful? how about sweet?

I like to look at pretty girls... I wonder why... I know some people whom are really pretty and sweet... but their character seems to prove otherwise pretty often.

am I judging them? what has beauty become now? just outer appearance? whatever happened to inner beauty? or rather character? whatever happened to moral values?

would anyone compromise on values just to be beautiful on the outside?


I'm losing touch with my piano... maybe I'm becoming lazy? did I lose my heart for it? is my identity in music? no - it's with Christ. Amen.

what's next, Father? =]

hello i'm in church now =]

=] leon just asked me to update my blog. so here it is. =]

happy belated to Leon Tan, my brother in Christ... =] don't be sad that the rest not meeting u... got us. =] harhar...

i'm doing my essay on milk now... due tmr... ARHHHHH...

harhar... leon is going crazy in the youth room now. -.-///

i shall go finish project. =]

LOVE You Jesus!!!

what i love

taught cheryl and alexander keyboard/piano today...
realised i really love love love teaching...

why can't i just do that now...

i have the capabilities... but no choice?
this is what i call useless.

to my deardear... superman is cuter than tigger... yeah... but tigger is so CUTE!!! =D

useless

what does 'useless' mean to me?
- its not not being able to do things when u can't or don't have the resources...
- it is having the resources and not wanting or moving your ass to do something about it...

alicia... update le lar... HAHA... =] hm... appeal for ACFI failed... piano, as usual... good Lord i'm begging for You to drop a bomb or i dunno what so i can have time to go prac... well...

possession is bliss, providence is blessing... pls bless deardear alex... amen. thank You God... =]

goodbye

Michael Jackson passed away...
=/ saddening... i'll always remember him...

=] O I GOT A NEW TIGGER!!! =D heehee... yay. thanks dear dear... =]

hm... appeal failed. o well. never mind. i know what i'm gonna do. i'll do my final semester while teaching piano. =D YAY praise the Lord!!!

sadness

deardear's in malaysia for church camp... stressed... tired... missing him loads... my heart aches for some reason... i don't want to go to school... i don't want to do anything...

i want to see him. now. i wanna see him now... 'God why can't u let me see him now?' i thought...

allison... worship the Giver... not the gift... worship the God who blesses, not the blessing... i have to remember that it was because God loved me so He blessed me with deardear... yet now i miss him so much and i don't know what to do... God, is this wrong? am i doing something that is hurting your heart? Father, give me comfort, please?

vomited my dinner... brother leon tried to cheer me up...

waited for deardear's message or phone call... waited... waited...