you have no right to walk my Christian life for me

you said that my parents are responsible for my life. then u say i'm answerable to God about the things i do.

you go on saying i'm gungho and too passionate about going to church. so you say that service, cell-group and quiet-time prayers are enough. i tutor people who are sec 2 and you say i should let people who are better than me tutor them, when nobody is there? you mean i have to be a degree-holder before i can tutor some sec 2? yes? what if i said you have to be a pastor to be able to tell how to live my life?

look at yourself, i don't wanna judge you, but how are u a better christian than i am. don't think u brought me into Christ means i have to listen to you. it doesn't go that way. it is stated in the bible, worship the Lord your God and serve Him only. i don't follow other instructions other than God's word.

you ask me to do what's necessary now. like what? u all adults do things with your head and not your brains. ask me to find a 5-day/week job, den u want me to get a Distinction - to make the dollars and cents invested in my music education bloody worthwhile - that requires at least 5 hours a day. you led me into Christianity and i worship God and i serve Him and now u tell me 3 activities for God is enough. aren't you all freaking contradicting yourselves?

you then say that i should do what i need to do, then you tell me if i'm free i can go talk to my relatives. don't be crazy. what i need - uni plans, packing my room - are all done. and don't expect me to talk to my relatives cos they don't walk MY christian life for me.

so you, should totally stop budging and cutting into my path. get out of my way.

i'm so angry. so angry. so so angry. i'm hurt. you don't spare a thought for other people's feelings and u're in no right to lecture me in my life. look into yours first, i have enough help from the Holy Spirit.

mass-killer.

i wanna go ARMY!!!

hello world... i'm back... finaly got time to come online...

not much time actually. now it's 2308 and i gotta go for family outing at Tree Top Walk tmr to celebrate Father's day... so i gotta sleep soon... quick update anyway...

thursday: sent Wei Hon to Pulau Tekong, morning: i went with ruth [the mad never-stop-laughing girl who keeps matchmaking me and WH or other people], leeroy - kum weng couldn't turn up [cos lao-sai den go hospital -.-]... met Wei Hon and his parents and brother Ben at White Sands mall. went to Pulau Tekong to send Wei Hon there, representing SPC lar. had tour around the compound. HUA the bed there is even thicker than my new STONE-HARD sponge mattress - those were SPRING beds lar!!! wa lao, if i go there it'll be like chalet for me. i so wanna go. ruth too. so see how. maybe lar. hahah. den had the "lecture" where they took their oath, hua, so cool man... and then we went for lunch with Wei Hon - one last time before we say goodbye - and the food there is FANTASTIC - wa lao, got dessert oso, chicken wing, satay. wa lao eh... den before he had to go off, we prayed for him. ya. he looked abit sad, but could see he's trying to be strong and face it. yeah... and then the "boys" went to fall in - in the shade. i repeat. they fall in under the SHADE. wa lao. i sorta exclaimed out loud and i guess people were looking at me, all the parents were like, dagger eyes. hahaha. HAHAHA. seriously lar, fall in under shade is hilarious to me. but well. maybe some of those guys maybe sissy or gay and they can't take it... so yeah... interesting though. they look so serious in squad... hahaha.

friday: skipped piano for ruth for nothing: i had to postpone lesson cos ruth called me say ruoping going amk hub and urgently needed pad. so i rushed to wait for them at hougang mall, den at hougang plaza, and then i saw the time, it is already 430. i COULD HAVE GONE FOR LESSON. and i got so angry, i msg ruth [cos i didn't wanna scream at her over the phone] that i was going home first and they're to call me when they're ready. den i walked home, so angry and all. den washed my hair cos i was so angry and needed to cool my brain. haiya... in the end met them at 5 plus... went to amk hub. movie fellowship with SPC Genesis youths: watched Kungfu Panda - OMGosh SUPER NICE i wanna watch again... and i SO love the music... hua... =] den after movie went to foodcourt to get a drink, den talked abit, den went home. i took 74 back with pauline - stupid bus, so crowded, hm, i know, not the bus' fault, fine. hm...

okay. i REALLY gotta go. i wanna train my singing again, and i'm training for army fitness now. HUA HAR HAR... =]

byby!!! God bless us, everyone!!! =]

Au Revoir!!!

stupid appeal

hello world, all humans, animals and organisms... living and dead... [haix, ignore me man. i actually talk to the dead. -.-]...

did my appeal to NUS already. waste my time thinking what to write, cos i thought i was 1000 WORDS; turned out it's 1000 CHARACTERS inclusive of spaces and punctuation. [wth]

wanna express thanks to my uncle Siew Loong who helped me edit my appeal, thought abit in vain. but his version was best and most concise. i tend to be to descriptive and too detailed. well, i'm a typical arts student, i think that everything detail is important.

ANYWAY, apologies to Bei; was supposed to go out today, den didn't make plans, etc...

this morning: 24-hour prayer slot from 5-6 am [hua, "AM" lei...]: i prayed for many things, from myself, to family, all the way till ministor mentor LKY... really meaningful. i dunno, but somehow i spoke in whatever language it was yesterday, and since i dunno what it is, i presume it's tongues cos i didn't seem to be aware of what [bullshit] i was rambling out during the youth prayer slot. praise God. =]

jinrong FINALLY came online. i saw her friend's photo already, somehoe MAYBE i look like her but it's so SMALL and MINUTE a possibility that our personalities are alike. hahaha. maybe she's my long lost sister. or even a twin. HAR HAR HAR... omg... BEWARE: existance of another Allison... HUA HAR HAR HAR...

WAH har har [i'm mad]...

what else. hm. need to help Xie Li find a new place to rent cos she doesn't wanna stay there any longer. hope either me, sheena, leo or steven can find a place for her... near hougang or kovan or sengkand. anybody knows, lemme know pls. =] tanks [really big tanks to u if u can find one for me, as in, tanks, u know, army tanks. HAR HAR HAR HAR...........]...

recently, that girl kept sticking to me... spent the WHOLE praise and worship session during youth service staring straight to her right, at me. omg sia... talk about thriller. this one is called night-mare. not just a mare. night-dragon [WAHHHHHH harhahahahahaha... ignore me.]...

aiya. mei at camp. i'm so bored now. later dinner at 6. it's 5 now. tell me what to do. stuff myself with prawn crackers later i cannot devour my precious dinner. alamak. mafan lar... my dad just suan me say i constipation like my mum, i told mum online, and she suan me back say i FOS [full of shit, a family lingo for species like me and my dad, also the nickname my mum gave me of all names] like my dad... wa lao. so i kenna bomb twice... i shall scratch head [for those who don't know, scratch head is to take the opportunity to point middle finger when your finger is nicely hidden in your head of hair, well, apparently it's not suitable for those whom are bald. hahahahaha. come on man, laugh. HAHAHAHA]...

i feel mad. i dunno wanna be lazy now or what... o ya... update: Piano exam yesterday: it went like this: i play scales, den one of the notes in treble range suddenly spoil and sustain on its own, i suspect maybe the hammer kenna stuck. and so as a result, since i had no choice but to be STUNNED [as in S T U N N E D by it], i made mistakes and stopped halfway through pieces. o great. there goes my distinction. okay, God, i know if i put u first, all is possible, fine, i hope to get an ABRSM Distinction den [hahaha, alamak, what a way to speak to God in, i'm supposed to speak fearfully, allison koh]...

yay. i can change my pillow case. i shall use the [de-de-de-der, de-de-de-der...] Heffalump pillow case liao... yay... =] wa har har...

alamak. i'm sleepy. i shall go read Bible. =]

o ya. i know rather random, but yeah. i wanna go see and dig mummies when i grow up. grow up, as in, when i'm older, don't expect me to grow in height other than when i wear heels. and Bei, don't laugh at me, idiot.

o ya. and BEI!!! thanks for your cookie... it was super nice and smells great - so much nicer than your stupid perfume; i rather smell like a cookie [=) hahaha]... when i make a cake or cookies [i meant, if i EVER succeed in the above mentioned expeditions in the kitchen], Bei will have the honour of eating it first. if she dies, you all know - don't eat what i made. HAHAHAHAHA i'm so evil... hahaha. sorry lar Bei... hahaha. thanks anyway... =]

and i'm so happy, i got the emoticon with missing teeth again!!! hahaha. so cute lar. =]

shit. i'm supposed to go read bible. okay. byby. =]

Au Revoir!

think of me, think of me fondly

hello world... =]

i come today to share a few videos... superb and marvelous...

feast your eyes and ears on these...

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=XjM1Lrsb7I8

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=o2GuK0kshNo

hmmm... o man. i wanna sing like her. har har...

piano exam this wed...

rejected from ntu, nus and smu. har har... God i still trust in Your plan for me... =]