Thursday, January 22, 2009

PEEEPEEE

hello world... =]

yay. i feel alive today, SO alive... =] anyway... hmmm... yeah...

thank you Desiree the Sea Lion, Valerie the Penguin , Crystal the Rabbit and Charmaine the Goldfish for kissing me until i went red faced today. heh... =]

crystal still so shy with us!!! aiyo... yay. today she mentioned she wants to buy a dress... and she tried a tube dress!!! WOW, crystal looked smashing!!! =] penguin tried dress too... i tried a top, but sorry, i cannot wear M... HARHAR =] penguin looked REALLY like a penguin. HARHAR.

anyway...

focus focus... study study... allison, for the sake of having time for everything important in life, you gotta plan, prioritise and work your ass off...

thanks Sea Lion and Penguin for the reminder today. =] i will work hard. even if it means no shopping, no going out with other friends, no ktv, no whatever... alot of pimples, become skinnier, eat less.... for the people i love... i'll work hard. =] all and all... to give my Father in heaven glory for bringing me through all things... =]

i shall go pamper myself... cheapo-style... lobster cracker... =]

o yeah. Baboon!!! thanks for the msg this morning. love ya babe!!! =]

MOOakx. thank God... =] and thank you Dear Dear for always being there for me. =] harhar. love u... thisssssssssssssssssssssssssss much and Sooooooooooooooooo much more. =]

Au Revoir.

*ps: looks like i might be going for exchange prog to UoN-au for one sem... =/ excited but i'll miss my deardear, my lumpy and my tigger... and my FOOD... =/ thinking...

Wednesday, January 21, 2009

special people

wondering... wondering... what special people are... isn't everybody just as special???

anyway... thank God for so many wonderful people in my life... family... friends... brothers and sisters...

dear Alicia the Baboon my dear girlie... =] love you so much. thank you for being there for me so many thousand times... =] when u talked to me today, i was like 'finally someone on earth understood what i meant when i said 2-3 hours piano prac a week isn't enough'... =] HUGGIES!!! =] thank you sweetie... =]

to my dear DearDear, my dear Superman, my Lumpy... thank you for spending today with me... thank you for all the days we've spent together, and the days to come... thank you for loving me the way you do... i love you too. =] huggies... =]

goldfish asked me today, how will i know if DearDear's the one... i told her... i just knew... she then asked what if things went wrong, or if it doesn't work out... i thought about it, i said 'i dunno, i just know lor... if really that happens, then either i was darn wrong, or God has a better plan for him and i... but i love him, and i know it...' =] goldfish u're so cute. hahaha. =]

and penguin, and sea lion... thanks for all the joy you all are to me... =] although you 2 bless me abit too much with kisses... HARHAR... lurve you 2 crazy flippery-creatures... heh... =]

and Dear God... Dearest dearest Father in Heaven, thank You for everything... everything... everything... =] i love You, more than anything else... =] *big hug* =]

okay. i gtg print notes. =] i love you world... =]

Tuesday, January 20, 2009

aussie - yes or no.

i sang "beautiful Lord, wonderful Saviour... i know for sure, all of my days are held in Your hands, crafted into Your perfect plan..."... beautiful lyrics, beautiful melody and beautiful harmony makes a beautiful song... my God is the one who makes all things perfect and good... all for His glory...

that's where i realise the songs i play aren't from me. they're from God. i wasn't the one playing well. it was His work in me... now i know, why it is that when friends ask me to teach, i just can't teach...

'study hard... good future...'... why should i? when everything else burns away, my soul will ache because i didn't live my dream... found out it was possible to go to australia for just one semester... which will be about 4 months plus... how about piano? if i do honours - what about piano? the people around me say 'its okay, u're not really letting go anyway; its just for awhile'... they think i can come back and continue pursuing my diploma...

look at me now. i prac 2 hours a week. i used to prac 2 hours BEFORE and AFTER lunch... where's my passion gone? i used to be really energised and real happy about practice... now its purely energy-draining and time-consuming... homework never was in my priorities - it was piano... now, i'd give ANYTHING to have time for the LOAD of compulsory yet useless school work which i absolutely loathe... haix. not loathe. but compared to piano, yes, loathe...

i should stop.

dear miss chew [ex-hihs teacher]... thank you for that simple yet inspiring message u shared with me... and thanks to your friend, Terence, for his wonderfully inspiring words that was in the cd he gave me for free... 'Dream a dream... and make it real... Whatever your dreams may be, make a choice, act on it, and never give up!'...

i couldn't make the choice. i can't act upon it. maybe i have to give up...

Lord, my soul cries out to You... every second i spend studying in school is an opportunity cost... every moment i miss my piano is a heartache... every time my fingers play in the air i lose my focus... i have no energy... but Lord, You are my only strength...

convince me. den i will give it up.

Friday, January 16, 2009

BARH

=] hehehe...

hello world... =)

went to church... had lunch with dear just now, cos today no-one's at home... as of now... i just came back from piano... =]

Mr Wong swarmed me with Gershwin scores... haix, i'm afraid i can't play those properly cos my hand is too small... and the Bach pieces look really Chimology... anyway i have 2 CDs that i'm to rip and den listen a million times... to study. =]

haix... i helped dad mop just now... and then i got attacked... this stupid idiotic disgusting yucko beetle was at the curtain in my living room, den i was mopping den that stupid trespasser started flying and was threatening my sanity.

and so... =] i dropped the mop and called my super-man dad... HARHAR... dad is my superman for now... when i get married, if there's an attacker, my superman is my dear... i just hope and pray he don't take the beetle and use it to bully me...

hmm... i have law and accounting work to be done asap, so that tmr i can go to church, and so that monday i can go out with dear... =]

o yeah... o yeah... i read this story... about this Anne Green who got pregnant den delivevred a still-borne baby and yet was accused for killing the baby cos her boss, some idiotic high-class man, didn't want her to spread tales that the father of the baby was his son, cos its too disgraceful for the family since Anne was just a family maid... in the end she was hanged, cos somehow the judge sided with that stupid guy... and then her body was supposed to be used for human dissection, but thank God just before they sliced her, there were movements - first her eyes, den abit of voice... den when they took her blood sample, it was like... YAY she's alive... =] but the story is SUPER SAD LARRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR... and it's a true story... omygosh... how can anybody do this to a girl... and she was only 16... aiyo... and she had to give up her true love... WAR COW eh... so sad. last night, before i slept, i kept thinking about it... =/

i think i'm still addicted to reading. but for now, i shall not touch any book other than my school textbooks, piano books and my beloved Bible. =]

arg... jaw pain... i think cos the beef was too hard, from lunch...

anyway... i wanna go SHOPPING!!!............................. =/ wa lao... i told Karmen i didn't go shopping during hols... and guess what... she asked me if i'm a nu-ren [woman, in chinese]... i was so so so sadded... but not devastated yet lar.

when i'm devastated i think i'll splurge... but whatever... i wait till its in His plan for me to shop. =] i go do homework now... =] HUGGIES world... i love u - dear earth, please get well soon... =]

Au Revoir!!

Tuesday, January 6, 2009

just a little bit more...

one thought i chewed on...

i know sometimes i get mad, angry, disappointed, upset and more... i may be gloomy, crying or throwing a tantrum... but please, i have brains, i have a heart, and i have the Holy Spirit helpine my figure things out.

don't throw expectations at me. don't tell me 'you shouldn't feel sad or feel disappointed' for whatever reasons. these are things ANYONE can say. these are things even i MYSELF know.

perhaps if you think about it this way, when u see someone sad and crying, and you talk to her and tell her she shouldn't be sad and crying, how does this make sense? cow sense?

don't do things just using your brain.

use abit of heart. i'm sure God gave you one.

all in all, i still want to thank you for being there for me. you're a friend indeed. thanks. =]

p.s: the person refered to doesn't have my blog add, at least i don't think so. harhar. =]

suspense???

OOOOoooo....

CNY's coming!!! =]

BUAR HAR HAR - i can't W_A_I_T to wear my new heels... =] yay. i'll be abit taller i think... =] yay... den i can have a better view of the world. =]

o yay. tmr mornin cowcow's meetin penguin for breakfast before the most boring subject's lecture - accounting practice.

haix... WHY - why - WHY did i have to go and take this course? WHY do i have to do 3 or 4 accounting modules? WHY? W_H_Y???

okie... creepy... =] harhar. i'm mad. [alicia, if u read this, and u laugh, i BET a hundred rupees u sound like a machine gun. HARHAR. staccato and darn loud. HARHAR, nv mind, you're still a babe... no, a baboon. hahaha]

i am tired... ... ... energy, where are u... i shall go and eat something... den i'd have found energy. =]
Music, i love you...
Piano, i miss you...
Dreams, i can't find you...
Life, i'm running after you...
Rest, i don't see you...

Love, i have you - thank God...
=] dear, thank you for just who you are. =] love you!
i shall go and eat. yeah. eat. no, not second round. just, eating. yeah. =]
byebye!!! =]
wave, world! wave!!! =]
p.s: i love band... i miss band practices... ahh... thank God for the music in my life... one band song, and it cures every ache, soothes every soul and restores all hearts...
byebye!!! =]
BAND I LOVE YOU!!! =] =] =] =) =) =) :) :) :) hehehe. MOOAKX.

to miss babe the baboon...

dear alicia... this post is SPEEEEECIALY for u... =]

harhar... i just read your post about our text convo. hehehe =]

just wanna let u know that you ARE strong... come on... =] and i'm sure God is standing right by you, protecting you. =]

HUGGIES!!! [okay, if alicia's baby, remus sees this, i'm sorry la... harhar]...

i know i rock your life. you rock mine too... omgOSH i still remember your crazy laughter lar... the machine gun. HARHARHAR =]

de next time i go out with u PLS don't make me eat 20 mushroom-sushi-things... i will bloat up and roll all over the floor...

HARHAR =] LOVE YA LOADS!!! take care ya! =]

o yeah, i'm the BIRD lar... squirrel is Bei, with her cartoon voice. HARHAR.

LOVE YA BABOON!!!

=]

Monday, January 5, 2009

Ho Ho Ho

WORLD!!! =]

its the 12th day of Christmas!!! =] so COOL RIGHT!!!

hehehe =]

on the 12th day of Christmas 2008, my true love came to meet me in school... =] HARHAR =] thanks dear... =]

o ya... Ip Man is SO COOL LAR!!! HUAR! HUAR HOOOOARHHHHH!!! =]

ok. i shall go do some OTHER stuff... =]

Father, i love You... =]

Au Revoir!!!

Saturday, January 3, 2009

i'm excited... are u?

hey hey world!!! =]

yay... i finally cut my hair...

hrmf... mum made me rebond it... it looks like mee-sua now... seriously... ARGGGGG...

anyway... its mum's $$$, not mine... anyway if this makes her happy, i may end up having mum buy more stuff for me...

o yeah... =] today's saturday... can't go church to meet dear... no excuse...

woke up earlier... at 1120... am... den went to bathe - but so SADDDDDDDDD, cannot wash hair yet... den my family went to IKEA... =] heh... prior to this, sis wanted to go for tree-top-walk... i was like... pls lar, u want my hair to stink till sunday evening huh... thank God i was in air-con most of the time, since yesterday till now... =]

@ IKEA: ME - new white, sturdy shelf + new wooden table [so i can throw away the com-table and my current white table]... YAY YAY YAY... =] HARHAR =] i can't wait for the new members of my room to come. =] WOO HOO!!! =] i'm so excited... as for SIS - new red table... =]

den we went to GIANT: i found LOBSTER CRACKER!!! omGOSH i'm so DARN happy!!! =] i've been looking for it for almost 3 months... =] yay... yay... YAY... =] den bought my Little Mermaid Disney Princess kids' perfume, and den eye-drops suited for soft lenses, den there's this super UBER CUTE kid's book... =] it's a book of Old Testament Stories from the Bible. =] WOW!!! hehehe. SO COOL RIGHT!!! =]

p.s: i can't stand my hair. ARG. i wanna tie it up... ARGGGGGGGGG...

hmm... what else... o yeah... yesterday... a few things... =]

Leon went crazy before combined cell started... he asked me if i rebonded my hair. well. that's not it... the problem is that he asked me 5 times... i felt like smacking his guts outta him... waacow... den i was like, 'no, no, i didn't rebond my hair. i ironed my hair on an ironing board', and he started giggling like no tomorrow... we were supposed to take photo together, cos we're not sorta opposites... him with the wire-mesh hair, and my straight hair. HARHAR...

den individual cell... just 3 of us - Alex, Faith, and me... aw... sheena never come again... haix. well... den we did some stuff, planning for the year etc... sorting out duties... thank Gos cell fund is now S$5... makes my life easier... =] but so much to do, and the so-much-to-do consists of a few difficult-to-do things... but i guess that's where i gotta let God lead me. yep. o yeah... and i'm real glad Faith is pretty motivated to do this... i just hope her fire won't burn out within one week. =] yay...

o YEAH... =] i can't wait for CNY... i LURVEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE my new black heels... WOO... =] HARHAR... if Ju-neh or Gi-neh saw they'd sure suan me... Ju-neh, i know what u will say, so don't; i'm not hot. and dearest Ju-neh aka Princess MOMO, we ALL miss u LOADS and LOADS and LOADS!!! hugs and kisses... =]

huggies to Gi-neh aka Bugbug who art in taiwan now... how i wish u can buy the SUPER SUPER shiok-to-eat sotong back for me... =] harhar...

okay... i shall go. =] yay yay yay... =]

dear Superman... i miss u sooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo much... =]

o yeah... and Dear God, i love You... thank You so much for everything - family, friends, Alex, church, my room, my bed, my relatives, and most of all, thank You for my salvation. =]

Au Revoir world. =]

Friday, January 2, 2009

yay *3

hello world!!! =]

o yay. Happy 2009 to you, world!!! =]

okay... what i did today...

[1] woke up at 1230... went to hougang mall with family to eat breakfast. i mean, lunch. at ajisen... [2] i went to get my hair clips, mum joined me and bought one for herself... den we went to Popular... i got my pens [3 pens - blue, green and silver, yay], sis got her ink-refills, mum bought highlighters [5, from which i stole 2], den paid and we went downstairs... [3] iora sale, shop... saw er-gu, ah-um and sharon... [4] sat at yakun, talk... [5] met again at All-Saints... =] such enjoyable time... =] praise God... =] [6] went home, laze around, i talked to dear dear... den we left for dinner, some thai place at kovan... [7] went back home, i BATHED [:) i love bathing, hehehe] den i went online, print stuff for Mei... den search for scores, talked to dear again... prayed...

now i'm going to sleep. =]

okay. goodnight. =] MOO-AKX world. =] big-hug dear earth. =]

goodnight. =]

Au Revoir! God bless us, everyone!!! =]

wrong

no no no... wrong wrong wrong...

you don't understand...

haix... allison... signs of old age...

Thursday, January 1, 2009

i'm happy again

hello world!!! =]

thanks for JinRong for those 'Whose line is it anyway' videos... for making me laugh like mad... =]

and thanks dear dear... =] you are such a blessing, such a joy, and such motivation for me... =] love u... =]

and thank You, Father, for blessing me with friends and people around me who care...


bugbug... love u so much =] u take care...

princess momo... =] love u too... =] miss ya LOADS!!! =]



Happy 2009!!! =]

love,
allison.

God still is the answer.

God still is the answer.

why i don't give up on me - my heavenly Father

why i don't give up on me - my heavenly Father