o yeah

one more thing...

dear God... thank You that You're able... You're mighty, faithful and You love us... You never sleep and always hear our prayers without getting tired... i will cast all my cares to You... when i'm weak, i know You're stronger... i love You, Father... =] huggies...

Amen.

praise the Lord!!!

=] YEAH!!! just came home from Prayer Summit... W_O_W!!! =]

my God is awesome. =] never felt so wonderful in a long long time... =]

my God is able. i know You will never fail nor fade away.

my God is my first love. 'I have decided to follow Jesus, no turning back... Though none come with me, I still will follow, no turning back...' =]

=] yay... i'm happy... happy? no. i'm JOY-full!!! =] full of the JOY of the Lord!!!

o yeah... deardear, thank you for the Tigger umbrella... =] MUAKX! heehee...

shuddup. i'm not childish... i'm special. HARHAR. [hihs school creed: 'i am special because God created me, and He has blessed me with unique talents; I'll be responsible and strive for excellence so that i can contribute most meaningfully to my school and society... i will uphold integrity, and be sincere and charitable; in what i do, i will not hurt others and myself, so as to create a more loving and peaceful community for all... i am special because God created me and He has blessed me with great potential; i'll strive to be an independent lifelong learner, humble in spirit to accept new challenges... standing in all with the HIHS family, we will be one where the love of God reigns...'

so cool right, school creed... although HIHS is a catholic school, i am thankful that God placed me there because i learnt SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO much and received soooooooooooooooo much and was sooooooooooooooo blessed to be there... thank You God...

i gtg... =] huggies earth, get well soon, be less polluted k. HARHAR. =]

Au Revoir!!! God bless all!!! =]

school, school, and school...

hello world... okay... Baboon, here's a quick answer to your request. HARHAR. =]

Birthday: yeah i'm 20 now =] yay. i have 150 bugs in hong-bao for my b-day... 'm going to spend it... MAYbe only... see how. =] i'm still trying to convince myself i deserve them...

Projects: darn those assignments... those projects... ARG... lemme list them irritating existances... marketing group report (done and didn't do well), mktg group presentation (coming REAL soon), EBUS case study (fun yet difficult - burned half my brains away thinking what formulae to use - and there's part 1 AND part 2), mktg test, Law test, Accounting prac set (MYOB prac set which is so *xyz*BFFFFFzzzzz* difficult and confusing and makes me hate money), mktg individual assignment (half done and inspiration dissolved over the week), accounting quiz, EBUS Access quiz (excel test was okay, i hope access will be okay to, but not bettin on it, yucks - i dind't even know access was created, actually i still don't know what it is HARHAR)...

Family: guess wat, nobody in my family wished me happy-birthday... they didn't even comee and shake my hand... during cell bbq, they didn't even open their mouths to at least mouth the lyrics of 'happy birthday'... i got a $50 from mum, hong-bao... is this what i want? maybe... is money gonna have to replace the simple 'hey, happy birthday my dear girl'? all i've ever wished for to get on my birthday was a note, or a card, with hand-writing... saying happy birthday to this wonderful person God created... is that so difficult? i'm not asking for a diamond ring, i'm not asking for a golden toilet bowl (i SO wish), i wasn't expecting a grand Steinway piano, or maybe... i wasn't expecting anything but a simple well-wishing... disappointed... [...:(...] [...=(...] [...=/...] my only consolation - my dear dear was the first to wish me happy birthday. heehee =] yay...

Me: breaking out... but i don't give a damn. not really lar, just i really can't be bothered about it anymore... my parents are more worried about my face than my prev shoulder/dunno-what-thingy injury... they're more stressed with my studies than my health and well-being... but i love them... they're all special people, my beloved family, dad's cute, mum's sweet, sis is super super adorable and smart... hm... O YEAH!!! =] not good news... starting to eat less... like when i was in JC... HAR... haix. i dunno what's wrong, i'll try to stuff myself... or the best i can do is not to waste food... =]

planning for caroling now... yay yay yay... i'm picking soloists... Ooo... aren't u excited... HARHAR =]

Moo. i SOOOOOO love the God who created me... =]

Dear God Almighty, i love You. =D

i gotta go... =] BYE world!!! =] God bless u all!!! mooakx!!!

BLARRRRRRRRRRRRRRRH

omGOSH...................................... accounting...................................

the prac set has 2 parts. i'm stuck at the 4th part of the first part. i'm so dead... so dead...

even eating durian sounds easier than accounting now...

God help me please, give me a faster brain that is more inclined towards accounting...

haix... i can't wait...

=] now its 11... one more hour to 'happy day i was born'... =]

yay... =]

dear God

i'm Yours again Father... i will be Yours forever... whatever happens, i will trust You, i will praise You, and i will worship You...

penguin sent me a song... Depths of Your love... thanks penguin... =] love u so much... continue to pray for Bird k, don't give up. =] mooakx.

thank You God, for my dear dear Alex... i have no idea what'd be of me, sometimes, without him... thank You for such a blessing, such a best-friend, such a wonderful gift... such a wonderful and supportive man... =] muakx dear dear...

cowcow's gonna do mktg now. =]

God bless everybody!!! =D

dear Bei =]

i just read your blog, Bei... and i saw this super sweet thing...

I'm your friend.
When you win,
I'll proudly tell the world,"Hey! That's my friend!"
But when you lose,
I'll sit by your side and say,"Hey, I'm your friend."...

harhar. i still remember last time in SRJC we used to do crazy things... look at chemistry teachers' shoes, see which one pretty, mock our geog teacher, make fun of Bei's 'best-fren' HARHAR who'se from the tribal group - this story's my invention *evil laughter* HARHAR. =] den i rmb after A's we were at Vivo eating and talking... den she shared her dream when she was young, i shared how i became a Christian... so nice to talk to her...

and she can make me laugh... by her laughing... and sometimes her random laughter is like... -.- random lor. and her crazy fiesta trying to look for her 'J2 shuai ge' since donkey years ago... HARHAR. den the times when we always try to 'hypnotise' Huda the POSB to come hougang mall with us - take 62 from school. HARHAR...

although i don't meet her as often now, i suppose we've drifted apart, but i know that life in JC without her would be sooooooooooo darn gloomy...

thank you Sibei the squirrel who laughs like crazy and looks like her dog... OMYGOSH YAAAAAAA she looks like her DOG!!!! HARHAR =]

huggies Bei, i miss your craziness. hahaha. i hope i get to see u real soon. =]

God bless u... jiayou in school ya... study ah. and don't keep eating snacks until u get heaty and get sick. harhar. =]

yay

WOO =]

yay i have a God who answers prayers... =] deardear got the deferment!!! yay =]. hehehe. =]

harhar. so nice, came down to meet me... dinner with me at home... saw my new friend - moomoo the cow the cowcow... =] hehehe...

thanks penguin for the cow!!! =] i shall upload photo next time MAYBE. lazy cowcow... =]

MOOAKX. =] thank You, dear God...

o yeah. cried and puked today... =/ tired... real tired... real real tired... i don't want my life to be like this now. wasted away... piano... don't grow old please... mum and dad's not buying another one for me... =/ haix.

thank you penguin for calling everytime something goes wrong... hear your sweet penguin voice i'll be happier and praise God for friends like u and animals... =] MOOAKX. =] to my twin... jiayou ya... don't give up... i believe in you. =] sealion!!! =] u are such a funny animal... =] God bless u...

oo yeah... dearest Tara... bei... the squirrel... thanks so much... after so long u still belive that i'm a cow who can play piano. =] love u. =]

and thank you deardear... for you... just you... =] muakx.

dear God, thank You SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO much for the deferment. =] yay. =] You are good and You are able... =] i love You God... =]

i go do project... thylam is really a sweetie. =] hahaha... i don't like de indian... de guy, aiya whatever... heck.

Au Revoir. =]

no hugs...

=[ bull's away... looks like no deferment, since no news since morning... =[...

i hugged my brother tigger, not enough... hug somemore, still not enough. haix. ARG cannot cry. i gotta do work...

haix. thank God its 2 weeks and not 2 months nor 2 years, otherwise i think i'll just collapse. harhar...

haix.

mad cow, laugh and sigh... haix...

mktg report, here i come. haix.

deardear i miss u... =(

question mark

hope...

hope...

hope...

dreams... it all started with dreams...

Dear God, i can't take any more... i don't want to wait until i breakdown or when something happens... i'm sorry...

i was thinking, when were the times i get a word of praise or an expression of love from my parents... its only when i work hard and achieve good results that they say 'keep it up'... its only when i'm crying alone in my room because i'm at my wits end and have no energy that they say 'its okay we love you'...

i worked... so hard, to earn that ' i'm proud of you'... i finally got it when i was 19... top student of CMS... 'wow'...

deardear came my place - supposedly to help me with work... but ended up i finished it cos my word count already met... den he left... i played piano... sang... den it was like this 'allison who are you doing all this for' feeling... so i stopped. and i was thought... den i felt this i-wish-deardear-were-here thing... den i started to cry... den mum came back... i ran into my room... cry somemore, silently...

i msg-ed deardear... but i guess his stomach was still aching. no reply... den realised project is in a mess cos 2 of my members are MIA...

mum came in... she gave me this bowl of abalone to eat... den i started to sob. so hug my mum and cry... i told her i was tired. which in fact i was...

den took and opened new tissue box... penguin msg me... i told her i'm crying... didn't really explain...

went online... janice talked to me on msn...

Janice says (10:44 PM):
well...and...erm....
i dun know if what im going to say will make u cry more.i hope not..
Sunshine!!! * TRANSFORMER-COW * Deuteronomy 31:6 says (10:44 PM):
orh
Janice says (10:44 PM):
but i will give it a go..
Janice says (10:45 PM):
i am very sure ur grandfather is with u all this while..and he is helping u...
yea...spiritually...he is there..
i remember u told me about him and you and...music..
i still remember...

okay..and i truely believe that....no matter how lil time u have to play that piece of music..
the time there gives u peace...
and im sure God's given talent for u is for a reason and purpose..

Janice says (10:50 PM):
i give u an online tissue and a big online tickle tickle tickle!
haha!

Janice says (10:52 PM):
haha! !!! wow! God really works in mysterious ways...
LOL!..suddenly thought if u were online and i said hi...
Sunshine!!! * TRANSFORMER-COW * Deuteronomy 31:6 says (10:52 PM):
huggies.
Janice says (10:52 PM):
its truely amazing!
Sunshine!!! * TRANSFORMER-COW * Deuteronomy 31:6 says (10:52 PM):
yeah =]

look at how God does wonders in my life... PRAISE the LORD!!!

then sings my soul... my saviour, God, to Thee... how great Thou art...

and u know... penguin's talking to me now... such a dear she is...

Father... thank You for the people You've put in my life... deardear's going into camp monday... although i do hope for his deferment to be approved, if its in Your plan for him to be there, then give me peace at heart and keep him safe at camp... i love You Father... Amen...

i gtg bathe. mum msn me to say go gao-gao-zhu...

bye... =]

dear God

dearest Father in heaven...

thank You so much for everything - every moment in my life, every person You've purposed to walk through my everyday life, every pinch of joy in my heart, every overwhelming situation, all difficulties, each trial, each temptation that You deliver me from, and those that i love and who love me...

for all possible reasons i could ever think of, Father, i love You.

=] huggies, Father.

Amen. =D

=/... sorry...

dear earth... i sincerely apologise first... for the selfish way in which i use paper... i printed loads of lecture notes and articles and readings... i'm sorry. i'll try to save more paper - to save you. huggies, earth. =]

dear world!!! =]

BARHARHARHAR =D

MOO... -.-...

okay. don't complain i never touch my blog.

1. got pissed by my aunt cos of an email, but well. i got better things to do.
2. deardear might be called up into camp, soon, so maybe miss my birthday. o well. =/ if its in God's plan, i'm in.
3. i gotta take care of my skin... okay, i get it. stop the nagging. studies still come first, after God of course.
4. i need to keep fit, alamak. like real, its the last on my list of priorities.

lastly. i'm chionging for mktg report, ebus news review, mktg assignment, ebus presentation, law homework due soon, accounting prac set... a.k.a i'm-busy...

dear friends, i'm real sorry i have no time for u guys... no solid time spent with u all, i know i miss out. but i'm sorry. there's a time and season for everything... so... yeah. its studies now. =] i hope u understand. take care. love u ALL... =]

okay. BYE. will update my rantings soon. after my term i think. HARHAR. =D

byby world... Au Revoir.