realisation

i was sad... but you never found out...

dear God, i don't understand why my family would treat me this way... do they love me? i feel alone at home, Lord, and i don't have strength of my own to survive this any longer... my dear Best Friend, sometimes i feel like running away, never letting anyone know where i'd be... never wanting to be found... sometimes i ask if i'm meant to be like this. but i know my Father in heaven has never purposed for man to be alone... and i believe my almighty God's grace is enough to sustain me... the devil will not bring me down. i am standing firm on my foundation, i am depending completely on my Saviour Jesus to deliver me... Father sometimes i feel that no one will ever understand me - maybe not even Alex, i dunno. teach me o Lord how to love and open my heart to someone who loves me so much... help me be bold for the Lord and sing His praises all my life... Abba Father, i don't want to dream a dream and let life destroy it... i give You, dear God, all my hopes, dreams and wishes - they're all Yours to use for Your glory. thank You for loving me and for knowing my deepest longings and my needs. thank You for providing for me all these years and showering me with blessings... thank You for covering me in Your Son's blood and salvation... thank You for lifting me up when i'm down. thank You for being my strength when my own self fails me... thank You for being in control of it all. thank You for planting the dream and purpose You had for me in my heart... and thank You for not giving up on me even when others don't see me the way You do... thank You, dear God, for treasures that have been given to me - Alex, my brothers and sisters, friends, family, relatives, music, salvation, food, water, a bed to sleep in, and so much more... God, You are indescribable... You are a good God and i know You are faithful... i love You, Father... thank You for loving me the way i am...

Lord Jesus, You touch and You healed people. when they believed, they were granted a miracle. i ask for You to give antie Mee Hua a fresh touch of Your loving grace and heal her. Deliver her from pain and suffering so that she will be well again. in all these, the glory is Yours.

i ask these in Jesus name. Amen.