when everything else doesn't really matter

sound. notes. harmony.

i hear music in my head.

on and on.

over and over again.

over and over again.

over and over again and again.

over and over again and again.

my head hurts.

so does my heart.

everybody gives me solutions.

but all i wanted was a listening ear.

stop.

=D smiley face

i love your giggling...

i love your funny hair...

i love your sarcastic jokes...

i love your whining...

i love you, my superman... =D

arrrhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

bully ME!!!

he keeps laughing at me.

why?

Why?

WHy?

WHY!?!?!?

=] huggies.

iLove

love to be unappreciated...

love to be alone...

love to be stressed...

how about uLove?

smiley face!!! =D

I ate pathetic cup-noodles… supposedly "abalone-flavoured" but I decided to steal some of dad’s ‘scallop floss’ with some cai-xin (duh, the preserved one).

Thank God I didn’t have to cook – or in essence, blow up the kitchen. Thank God I was born in Singapore where food is clean, good and AVAILABLE. Thank God I went from being ‘hungry’ to ‘hungrier’ to ‘ super awesome FULL’. =D HAHaaa…

Anyway… I went ‘nutty’ today cos of some stupid thing that was due to me being retarded and awake-but-unconscious. Sorry dear dear…

And I miss my piano so much… does anybody know that? Haix, I can only pray labour pain is less painful than this.

stomachWAR

HUNGRY

H U N G R Y

H U N G R Y

I AM VERY
H_U_N_G_R_Y!!!

crying

tried... tired... tried again... still tired...

gave thanks...

tried... tired...

cried...

sooner or later comes 'died'.

i tried.

useless

programmes that can't upload photos or take 1 eternity to upload is stupid. -.-

dear Jinrong, JIAYOU with the easter2010 thingy yeah! =D *shakes pompoms*

iLAME

there's this part in Time to Say Goodbye that is

originally: 'Su navi per mari’…

I mistook it to sound like ‘Tsunami kalamansi’…

AH HARH HARH FURNEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!!! =D

why bully each other?

=] cheer up, brother Leon... you have a really caring Best Friend... Jesus!!! =]

love - seems to be described in third party... he loves you, she loves you...

care - seems to be packaged by superficial words now... i'm sarcastic because i love you...

i don't believe in disguising the love and care i have for someone... i don't believe in saying that i'm forcing you to do this and it's because i care... i don't believe in saying i care because i'm a good person...

i believe caring is rooted in the love for others... i believe love comes from God... in fact, God IS love...

i'd rather have one loving friend than 10 fake ones...

yours truly,

alli.

cravvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvving!!!

i want WAFFLES CRISP!!! =] i still remember that day in primary school when Nicole Poon my best friend then let me try the cereal her mum bought for her.

life-changing sia... WOO =D

yum-yum... =] *salivating*

=]

=D

=]

=D

=]

=D

've got a darn fat-S mouth

sometimes i guess i'm critical... i compare... i am opinionated... but how else am i human? i say things, sometimes i totally mean it there and then. but then again, perception changes with environment and over time... i won't even know when i mean it or not. damn it.

haix. i hope God will make me a better Christian. i still think i suck.

-.-

i think i'm hungry?

crumbs drop here...

crumbs drop there...

crumbs dropping everywhere...

please:

ants don't come here,

don't go there...

don't even appear in my room anywhere...

=D yeah. Hungry... =D but gonna sleep. -.- i wish food will just drop from the sky... maybe gum-balls? or pancakes? HARHAR =D

dear God, please help dear dear's blister heal faster - it's huge, bulging and super painful. please ease the pain and enable him to walk normally again. in Jesus' name i pray. amen. =]

mooakx to all the tiggers in the world, to my superman, and to my Father in heaven. =D

i'm crazy...

itchy here...

itchy there...

itchy itchy everywhere...

i should drink more water - so that my blood will not be so sweet and, as such, mosquitos will not bite me... i need to dilute my sweetness. HARAHR...

LAUGH with me!!!

let allison tell u a joke.

guess why plain water is not good for myself?

because... it will dilute my sweetness... HARHAR!!!

farny right!!!???!!!???!!! HARHAR i'm so smart... =]

i've got smarties for brains... =]

blar

choose one:

1. a whole banana

2. one portion of a banana that has split into 3

i choose (1). if u wanna give me attention, even if it's for awhile, please give ALL your attention to me. =] if i'm getting 1/3, i'd rather not have your attention at all.

=] who's you? yeah, you. =D HARHAR.

=D superman singing for me over the phone... =] harhar... so cute!!! =]

no, i'm not lonely

it's just that nobody cares. nobody was EVER there. nobody understood. nobody can read my body-language. nobody asked if i was okay. nobody offered help.

everybody asks for help. everybody doesn't say 'thank you' when i make a sacrifice to be there. everybody doesn't look like Christ one bit.

why?

i try so hard. i get scolded. i am responsible for the weirdest things for the weirdest reasons. i make sacrifices. i sleep less. i study as and when i'm alive. i keep thinking. i don't stop praying. i keep suggesting. i keep getting 'no' as answers. i persevere.

and all i get after that is nothing.

Dear God, i don't live for returns on my 'investments' and sorts. i don't mind ZERO but i do mind negative. if this is what Jesus did for me and if i have to go through this to be more like Him, then please give me more strength before i collapse in the middle of the road again. if i'm pessimistic, forgive me for being 'realistic'. i can't help it; please grant me Your grace and mercy in the things i do and the things i have no choice but to do. and last but not least, if it is Your will for me to follow even though i don't understand, give me a willing heart and help me be strong to take any criticism. Amen.