aftermath

i'm back. he threw away pretty much. spilled some vulgarities. made everybody unhappy.

God, i'm a Christian and i know You hear me for it is in Your Promise that You will always hear Your children's prayers. ever since my dad left his former job and started his own business, he spends very little and complains when we spend money. he downgrades himself verbally and he goes so hard on himself as if it's a bold thing to do. i knows my father believes in You. and for this reason, God i ask that You enter my father's life today, and let him follow a Christian life too; one that is faithful, righteous, loving, patient and one that is the most fulfilling walk of his life - a walk with You. i know i cannot control my father nor the way he thinks, but i hope that by being patient, respectful and obedient, You will work a wonder and fill my father's life. in Jesus' Name i pray, Amen.

now dad's pretty much okay. he showed me a red mark on his protruding tummy - from the hot iron just now. haix. i'm sad, and i'm crying and trying so hard to hide my tears. it's been a long time since i've been as upset as this. not upset, maybe more of sad. in a way disappointed that my father still behaves this way. but i know things will change.

"when the oceans rise and thunders roar, i will soar with You above the storm; Father You are King above the storm, i will be still and know You are God..." Still, by Hillsong.

Holy Spirit, give my comfort for now, and strength for tomorrow.

got abit of a throat irritation. haix. i shall go cheer myself up. work tomorrow. yay... =/... haix.

cheer up alli. come on. huggies to myself. =] yay. okay. i'm great now... =]

gtg. Au Revoir!!! =]