i googled 'SLEEP'

i found:

- maternity pillows, called pregnancy body pillows

- 'hug-me' pillows, which is shaped like half a person's torso

- Hizamakura Lap pillow which is reported to imitate the 'comfort and warmth' of a lady's lap -.-

- sushi-look-alike pillows

- the 'pool-of-blood' looking pillow (lame)

=] so cool. my dream bed will have LOADS of fluffy pillows. =]

snoring monster

Snoring is the vibration of respiratory structures and the resulting sound, due to obstructed air movement during breathing while sleeping.

This is for Superman - I DID NOT SNORE.

Let me tell you all about Log-cake. He is a really really cute Tigger. =] He exists at the 7-Eleven near my school. SO CUTE!!! =] he waved at me today! so sweet of him - harhar. too bad he's not mine. =]

*i think i'm stressed. my fingers itch to pluck out strands of hair and i keep looking for scissors. -.- punch me.

=D dear God, i love u!!! muark!

harhar what will it feel like to give God a kiss and a hug? is He like a cloud? will heaven also experience warming from the sun?

LAUGH with me - number 2!!!

i am going to invent BLUETEEH.

=D

HARHAR!!! funny right!!! =]

were u looking

i think we need to take a little time to realise that some people in our lives are doing their best for us... even if they don't show results, it is the heart that matters, not the outcome.

selfishness maybe human nature - but neediness is human nature also. yeah u can take, but do spend some time giving as well.

=] cutie pie, i say!!!

http://www.little-disciples.com/

SO CUTE!!! Lili, u must see this! =]

look here okay

it's amazing how much ......... u give me. =|

it's also amazing how ...... i can get.

it's STILL amazing how ....... i get hungry again.

=] i am learning to be contented.

* to my dear pretty cell leader, Lili. =] thanks for encouraging me and making my day with your msg today. =] Love ya - God bless u and the work of your hands!!! =]

my sis is the REAL smart one

chatted and poured out my anger and complaints to mei...

she said i'm being too nice and that sometimes it pays to be bitchy. HAHA only my sister can say that. heh.

haix. too bad i can't.

and i can't believe i sent an email to say sorry to the person who made me mad. this 's gonna scar me for life.

sometimes it is better not to ask what things mean

*why do u ask? have u got something to be mindful about? if yes, why make the situation more ambiguous in the first place?

i suck i suck i suck i suck i suck i suck i suck i suck i suck i suck i suck i suck i suck i suck i suck i suck i suck i suck i suck i suck...

Allison, have u done this? did u do that? did u remember to ___? did you bring the ___? can you give me ___? do you know u did something wrong in the ___? please edit this. please change that. no that wasn't what i said, i said ___. no, i didn't say wrongly, u must have heard something else. i will do that today. i will send it to you asap latest ___. i can help u with this. but u didn't say that, did u? do this. do that. pick that up. clean this. clear that. pick up the pieces. play this. open this. throw that away. keep that. help me get this...

i declare myself robot of the year - i don't need emotions, i get to keep them in the processing box where a human heart should be; i can do all thing if u ask; if i don't do things it's my fault as always; if everybody else doesn't do it, i will have to volunteer myself; i don't have an outlet for anger because 'i don't have any feelings, i just need to be not-so-affected by it'.

i am a stupid robot - i'm not clever nor witty; i'm always sick with a virus; i leak from my nose; and i need to be constantly fed food.

i suck - yeah, tell me what u think, yes i know what u think.

it's not what u think or he thinks or she thinks that matters. can anybody keep quiet and hear me out? can anybody ask me about anything else other than studies, church, piano and family? suggestion? o i have plenty. how about relationships with the people around me, my responsibilities, what i struggle with, my health...

my dad complains he's the 'maid', my mum studies and is the smartest, my sis is the REAL smart one and has a terrible temper that goes however she likes.

i have to shut up at home, i cannot cry when i'm upset or stressed because dad says i should not have any reason to be stressed. i get scolded for being too quiet. i'm ignored when i make remarks. family events and meetings are told to me like 8 hours before. DO I FEEL LEFT OUT?

yes i do.

i'm sick. i want to stop everything and play dead for awhile. while everybody looks at the outside of Allison Koh i shall spend time with God looking at my insides - including my lungs and my bones that seem to be ageing earlier than supposed.

one double-meaning...

haix. dad expressed his concern, saying 'very late le, go and sleep lar, you idiot you'.

thanks dad.

thank God is more loving than that - if he called me an idiot and asked me to go to bed i'd probably NO-WAY-NOT be a Christian.

huggies to my Every-lasting God.

and to my dear Superman sleeping in Mac, huggies, sorry i'm not there with u. LOVE U! =]

she is the problem

even best friends can fall out and separate...

poof - pigeon

shoot me.

r_u_b_b_e_r band effffFFFFFFfffffect

i'm a little over-stretched.

do u notice that?

i spend all my time satisfying other people's wants and demands. sick of it. i'm a bird in a stupid pink cage - if u just can't let me fly, shoot me.

charged: GUILTY

i think i'm a really lousy friend.

i have all the time in the world - 24 hours actually - to spend anyway i like. i can pray, i can do stuff at church, i can do stuff for my family and i can go for meetings...

yet, i have no time for my friends. i've not met a single one of my friends as a 'going out' session for very long. ever since entering UoN, my life was like coin-flipped-over...

piano's kinda boring now, no challenge, no kick, no fun... school's even MORE boring... family's like ARGGGGGg-.-bwvvv=P><

haix. now i know what tired feels like.

along i went

leader's retreat - i went... hm... fruitful? fun? hm...

blarh... =D

Blue Rose - iLike

i was bored. i read my own blog posts. i laughed. HARHAR. =D maybe i should replace the 'genius' in 'alli the genius' to 'great'. HARHAR. self-glory. boring...

i'm like google-ing every business term that i don't understand for my econs assignment and i realise all the info i need has to be bought. -.- so i shall crap my entire assignment and pray that i make enough sense to get another near-full marks grade. =D

can't go for leader's retreat. dad went crazy wanted to become buddhist just cos he thinks God stole his daughter. maybe i should ask my dad to put me on an altar and burn me - sacrifice his daughter like Abraham did his son. HARHAR. imagine that. =] can't wait. i've never been roaster before - only boiled and frozen and fried. =]

ar har har... i'm so lame and bored i'm laughing at nothing. ar har har. -.- i played PSP (my sister's) and i kept killing my own mercury ball. sucks to lose. haix. maybe if they had Tigger-coloured mercury balls i'd be more careful about how i swing the stupid toggle. o, joystick i mean. -.- i still think toggle sounds better than joystick. what's a stick gotta do with joy - turning it that when u win it makes u happy? retarded.

o crap. crapping time. HARHAR maybe for Christmas i can CRAP even though i can't RAP. HARHARHAR funny??? =D

TNT - BOOM.

the title's purpose was to amuse myself =]

somethings are better left un-said.

yeap - someone said it, someone agreed with it, so be it.

my family is way awesome - only describable by one word: 'UNBELIEVABLE'. nothing they say will hold true unless its 'i will kill u' or 'no'.

can i be calculative with people who calculate with me? if yes, then since my parents don't wanna let me do what i love at church, i'll not give them the results they want. will that be right? nope. why - because if i do that then i'm totally un-Jesus-like. but i'm still un-Jesus-like anyway, so why not? because that's the way i am. and anyway if i do well, i'll give my certificate to my parents as a present for their next next anniversary - then they'll be proud of me. they'll be prouder than they were when i stood on stage as Top Student or when i scored full marks or when i was getting good grades in school - and i will say 'no thank you, for being proud of me at all'.

i had a great day - but when my parents speak, they totally pull me rock bottom. so how? yay? praise the Lord? i tried to punish myself to thinking that - i went to boil myself in hot water in the shower then soak in freezing water until i felt so tender i could eat myself. then i went to _._._._._ my cupboard 'cos i just wanted to vent my anger and frustration cos life's totally not going the way anybody/somebody like me would want it. actually, it's just me. and then, i was like AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!! - just to frighten myself HAHAHAR

and i praised and thanked God.

guess: for what that i praised and thanked God...

HARHAR - i said 'thank You God that although i'm in a rut in my life i'm so super duper grateful u didn't put me in a cold dark dungeon with bugs and small flying monsters and big swimming aliens; i'd rather be out here trying to stab myself than in there trying to save myself. praise God for my family'.

-.- that was as far as i ever could go, thanking God for my family. sorry i'm just being BWVVfffFFFFT-irritating-and-sarcastic. =D my hobby.

my econs assignment is undone. i HECK don't feel like doing anything about it - anyway after that i don't get any more or less attention or approval from my parents and my life still stays normally awesome.

-.- box me pls. i'm talking. talking so much. Disco is on at my sister's room, F1 is on in the living room and roaring-tiger's at the dining table doing Work. everything's so loud i can't hear my thoughts so i shall type. thank God for type-able-things. =D

i shall go and complete my mission for the day - econs... sounds like those 'soup of the day' things - hungry but my house is allergic to appetite. going going gone.

it wasn't that

i'm still uneasy, uncertain and unassured. i'm afraid of what's to come, but i don't think i can predict the future... well, its in God's hands - that's the only thing that assures me.

my snail-shell is growing in size, i guess due to my growing brain. HAHA.

i told Mr. Crane not to visit me so much already. i like my new weight but superman wants me to go back to original. and something's wrong with my system again... eat less burn more?'

is there 'think less accomplish more' in this world?

weeeOOOweet!

envy me okay!!! i have a whistling nose!!!

=D

i want to stop school and laze.

-.-

*bish* wake up alli.

O!

O!!

O!!!

i saved some really Really REally REAlly REALly REALLy REALLY R_E_A_L_L_Y cool images!!! =] i love good music and i love good pictures... =]

superman is singing edelweiss to me now... interesting lyrics. =] hughug...

happy face

=D i just read someone's blog - someone i don't know, though. she wrote about 'Why are Red and Green the colours of Christmas?'... and she gave such pretti-ful answers =D i like it...

http://colourmehappyblog.blogspot.com/2008/12/why-are-red-green-colours-of-christmas.html

=]

=|

-.-

is there?

do 'happily-ever-afters' exist? or do we humans make believe they do?

since Mr Crane is STILL not here, the only food i have access to are Candy and Food for Thought... Candy ain't so good a thing to eat at 1243 am, so i guess i'm having Food for Thought.

ate my FFT.

=( MR CRANE!!! sobx i want my food... =/ pathetic Monster. 1 will have to go to bed hungry.

Mr. Crane???

cranes that bring familes their babies - they bring me my food... =]

WHERE IS MY CRANE!!!

i'm HUNGry =D

Basic Accounting for Christians

Father, when i give to You, i do not measure, nor do i calculate, how much i give and its relative opportunity cost.

Father when i give to You, because You are my everything, my everything is Yours.

Father, help me to be aware of my speech and temper - i know You draw the line between passion and pride, i know You want us to be clear that we go all the way, one way, the Jesus way.

Father, make me happier and more joyful each day - remind me that You walk with me wherever i go, and that Your presence will fill my heart with strength enough for each trial in each day in each season.

Father, i trust You and You alone will i rely on.