TNT - BOOM.

the title's purpose was to amuse myself =]

somethings are better left un-said.

yeap - someone said it, someone agreed with it, so be it.

my family is way awesome - only describable by one word: 'UNBELIEVABLE'. nothing they say will hold true unless its 'i will kill u' or 'no'.

can i be calculative with people who calculate with me? if yes, then since my parents don't wanna let me do what i love at church, i'll not give them the results they want. will that be right? nope. why - because if i do that then i'm totally un-Jesus-like. but i'm still un-Jesus-like anyway, so why not? because that's the way i am. and anyway if i do well, i'll give my certificate to my parents as a present for their next next anniversary - then they'll be proud of me. they'll be prouder than they were when i stood on stage as Top Student or when i scored full marks or when i was getting good grades in school - and i will say 'no thank you, for being proud of me at all'.

i had a great day - but when my parents speak, they totally pull me rock bottom. so how? yay? praise the Lord? i tried to punish myself to thinking that - i went to boil myself in hot water in the shower then soak in freezing water until i felt so tender i could eat myself. then i went to _._._._._ my cupboard 'cos i just wanted to vent my anger and frustration cos life's totally not going the way anybody/somebody like me would want it. actually, it's just me. and then, i was like AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!! - just to frighten myself HAHAHAR

and i praised and thanked God.

guess: for what that i praised and thanked God...

HARHAR - i said 'thank You God that although i'm in a rut in my life i'm so super duper grateful u didn't put me in a cold dark dungeon with bugs and small flying monsters and big swimming aliens; i'd rather be out here trying to stab myself than in there trying to save myself. praise God for my family'.

-.- that was as far as i ever could go, thanking God for my family. sorry i'm just being BWVVfffFFFFT-irritating-and-sarcastic. =D my hobby.

my econs assignment is undone. i HECK don't feel like doing anything about it - anyway after that i don't get any more or less attention or approval from my parents and my life still stays normally awesome.

-.- box me pls. i'm talking. talking so much. Disco is on at my sister's room, F1 is on in the living room and roaring-tiger's at the dining table doing Work. everything's so loud i can't hear my thoughts so i shall type. thank God for type-able-things. =D

i shall go and complete my mission for the day - econs... sounds like those 'soup of the day' things - hungry but my house is allergic to appetite. going going gone.