ARHHHHHH... oh my gosh...
haix. take my life please.
why is home like this...
why, Father, why...
give me strength...
Wednesday, December 31, 2008
what home feels like
dear God...
i have to write to You today... i feel sick... really sick... not physically... emotionally sick, to be exact.
Father, will You please reveal to me - why do my parents say things that sound so very hurtful? they dote on my sister, and yet when they say or do things so selfishly, it really hurts me and mei alot... can't they tell? why do they always say that we - me and sis - have grown up and are straying away and so they shouldn't 'bother' us or else we'd supposedly 'tell them off'... i really don't see myself doing that - i speak to them respectfully, i occaionally joke around but never to the extent of insulting my parents. my sis can have the liberty to say all she wants...
Father, i don't ask for them to love me as much as they do my sister. i don't dare ask for them to be the model parents in the world... i just hope they could be a little more understanding and respectful in the way they speak to and about me...
i'm gonna be 20 soon, but i don't expect myself to 'leave' the house. why do they say that of me? yes, i have a boyfriend, it doesn't mean i'll get myself pregnant. can't they trust me? i go out alot, yes, but it doesn't mean i'll take drugs or smoke. they still don't believe me...
have i done anything wrong? Father is this Your test for me? please save me, i don't think i can take it any longer...
i'm stuck, get me out. please...
love always,
Your child... allison.
i have to write to You today... i feel sick... really sick... not physically... emotionally sick, to be exact.
Father, will You please reveal to me - why do my parents say things that sound so very hurtful? they dote on my sister, and yet when they say or do things so selfishly, it really hurts me and mei alot... can't they tell? why do they always say that we - me and sis - have grown up and are straying away and so they shouldn't 'bother' us or else we'd supposedly 'tell them off'... i really don't see myself doing that - i speak to them respectfully, i occaionally joke around but never to the extent of insulting my parents. my sis can have the liberty to say all she wants...
Father, i don't ask for them to love me as much as they do my sister. i don't dare ask for them to be the model parents in the world... i just hope they could be a little more understanding and respectful in the way they speak to and about me...
i'm gonna be 20 soon, but i don't expect myself to 'leave' the house. why do they say that of me? yes, i have a boyfriend, it doesn't mean i'll get myself pregnant. can't they trust me? i go out alot, yes, but it doesn't mean i'll take drugs or smoke. they still don't believe me...
have i done anything wrong? Father is this Your test for me? please save me, i don't think i can take it any longer...
i'm stuck, get me out. please...
love always,
Your child... allison.
Tuesday, December 30, 2008
back again...
YO YO WORLD!!! =]
belated Merry Christmas and Happy New Year!!! =]
okay... long time no update... anyway... hm...
okay... camp was great great GREAT!!! =] basically, great. =] i'm glad to see some of the newcomers join us for service... =] WOOHOO... =]
yeah... apologies to Bei... after my exams, i had a week to prepare for camp, den the camp took my entire week, den after the camp we had the week of Christmas with the service and the many preparations etc... den it's this final week left, and i rushed to change my lecture grouping... =/ sorry bei...i owe u 2 movie marathons k... =] anyway u take care hor... don't always eat heaty stuff... =] and thanks for being such a CRAZY friend of mine... =] miss ya!!!
hm... and there were many stuff... many... o yeah... spent Christmas with my superman, Alex... =] yay... thank God mum and dad allowed... ooo and biao-yee came to spend Christmas with us. =] i hope to see the whole malaysian family real soon!!! =]
spent one afternoon out shopping with mum and dad on sat... bought S$200 worth of stuff... my gosh... my mum was in such a glorious mood. HARHAR =] den had to rush to do usher duty for Boys Brigade event at church... ended up playing piano while pris foo led... yeah...
i'm quite happy with the timetable, =] fridays are free for me to focus on piano and cell group. =] YAY =] den i can resume my 2 hour quiet-time for fridays... =] WOO yay =]
its just amazing... how much God loves me... how much He has blessed me... =] thank you Father...
belated Merry Christmas and Happy New Year!!! =]
okay... long time no update... anyway... hm...
okay... camp was great great GREAT!!! =] basically, great. =] i'm glad to see some of the newcomers join us for service... =] WOOHOO... =]
yeah... apologies to Bei... after my exams, i had a week to prepare for camp, den the camp took my entire week, den after the camp we had the week of Christmas with the service and the many preparations etc... den it's this final week left, and i rushed to change my lecture grouping... =/ sorry bei...i owe u 2 movie marathons k... =] anyway u take care hor... don't always eat heaty stuff... =] and thanks for being such a CRAZY friend of mine... =] miss ya!!!
hm... and there were many stuff... many... o yeah... spent Christmas with my superman, Alex... =] yay... thank God mum and dad allowed... ooo and biao-yee came to spend Christmas with us. =] i hope to see the whole malaysian family real soon!!! =]
spent one afternoon out shopping with mum and dad on sat... bought S$200 worth of stuff... my gosh... my mum was in such a glorious mood. HARHAR =] den had to rush to do usher duty for Boys Brigade event at church... ended up playing piano while pris foo led... yeah...
i'm quite happy with the timetable, =] fridays are free for me to focus on piano and cell group. =] YAY =] den i can resume my 2 hour quiet-time for fridays... =] WOO yay =]
its just amazing... how much God loves me... how much He has blessed me... =] thank you Father...
haix... on the other side...
sometimes things get abit tough...
family, relatives... all the times i just feel inferior to sis...
and when i have to pretend it doesn't matter when people say things that hurt me...
God, i can only depend on You...
and there's another, yet again, problem...
shouldn't be, but yet... the feeling keeps probing me...
what are you? if u're not up to any good, please leave me... i don't like this feeling...
i'll be 20 soon...
when? when am i going to fulfill my dream?
ever? or never?
Father, i can only trust You...
when i finish studying at 22... will my parents still rule over my life?
will superman and sunshine last?
Father, only You know all...
God, i trust You...
i'm holding on, never letting go...
You are my last bit of hope...
dad went out... i'm gonna play piano... =] WOO yay =] huggies world, get well soon!!! =]
Au Revoir!
Saturday, December 6, 2008
more to come
hello world...
dearest earth, i'm boered... i went to read the Time magazine just now, and i see so many pages of articles written about how you are doing... you're not well - how are u? although i see alot of stuff written about saving the earth - there was one about PAYING countries to reduce deforestation, which is like o-my-gosh lar wa lao eh - and yet i don't see the biggest polluter in the world doing anything. and seriously, Iceland's talking about the PROMISE of GEOTHERMAL energy, as if the countries have enough guts to take up the risk of using the money to build up the entire geothermal energy thingy lar...
-.- i'm bored... sis in hongkong... mum studying for exams, i can't really go out, dad's home watching tv, i can't play piano, i can only go online... seriously, i might as well go back to school lor... the only difference is that now that its hols i can sleep longer...
=] i'm looking at my box of Ferrero Rocher... in front of me... i feel like eating one... =] hehe...
nah... i shall call my dear... o man... church is so messy now... haix... huggies to myself... =]...
=] adios earth... =]
Au Revoir...
dearest earth, i'm boered... i went to read the Time magazine just now, and i see so many pages of articles written about how you are doing... you're not well - how are u? although i see alot of stuff written about saving the earth - there was one about PAYING countries to reduce deforestation, which is like o-my-gosh lar wa lao eh - and yet i don't see the biggest polluter in the world doing anything. and seriously, Iceland's talking about the PROMISE of GEOTHERMAL energy, as if the countries have enough guts to take up the risk of using the money to build up the entire geothermal energy thingy lar...
-.- i'm bored... sis in hongkong... mum studying for exams, i can't really go out, dad's home watching tv, i can't play piano, i can only go online... seriously, i might as well go back to school lor... the only difference is that now that its hols i can sleep longer...
=] i'm looking at my box of Ferrero Rocher... in front of me... i feel like eating one... =] hehe...
nah... i shall call my dear... o man... church is so messy now... haix... huggies to myself... =]...
=] adios earth... =]
Au Revoir...
Thursday, December 4, 2008
final paper
hello world!!! =]
it's 4th december... i've got a final paper tmr... STAT 1060... YAY~!!!...
=D yay yay yay=]
sis went hongkong yesterday... =] i realise, SERIOUSLY, my sis is such an adorable human-being... =] u should go into facebook to look at her pictures... HARHAR... how can u not love her...
o yeah... and i love my brothers too!!! =] so CUTE lar alamak... =] Lumpy is beside me now... =] hehehe... ARRRRRHHHHHH =] hehehe. SO CUTE!!! =] and my didi is there near my window... i think he's sleeping, but not very sure cos his eyes are open. =] HARHAR =] so cute!!!
had econs paper today... den during lunch today i realise i'm REALLY blessed... i have my hubbie, i have my brothers and sisters in Christ, i have friends who go crazy calling me a cowcow which i'm not [i'm SO not a cow, i don't look like one, those who say i look like one are just blinded by my BRIGHT-ness], i have my dear tigger and lumpy brothers, i got my family, i have a roof over my head, i have a bed, i have 2 pillows for my big-brain [HARHAR come'on laugh with me, hahaha], i've got a bolster to help me feel warm at night, i have my FAVOURITE lime-green furry blanket, i've got a table, i have a chair, i have a laptop, i have contact lenses that is my mum's attempt to make me look prettier [though i'm abit blind now], i've got shoes and slippers and heels [though the heels absolutely kill me sometimes], i've got my PRECIOUS handphone [that's why i SO don't need to carry an extra load of an mp3 player - my phone is fantastic man], i've got clothes [enough to keep me warm, helps me NOT feel naked; and enough to make me feel human - i'm NOT a cow], i've got tissue boxes in my room [i figured in some countries u only find those at hotels], i have air-con and fan in my room, i've got heater in my bathroom, ... ... i've got my darling darling piano... and last and definitely not the least - in fact this is the best [they always say save the best for the last] - i have God... =]
yay monday going hubbie's place - movie marathon... YAY!!! =] i'm still trying to persuade him to let me bring my third brother tigger along... =] hehehe... dear, i love u, HUGGIES... =]
o yeah... i can't wait to go SHOPPING, SLACKING... i wanna buy clothes, buy shoes, cut hair [mum, PLS i don't wanna rebond my hair - it'd look like barbie's hair when dry and mee-sua when wet], clear my room [maybe only, hehehehe, but most likely it'd have to wait, WAR HARAHR], buy files, buy more tigger stuff, do CHRISTMAS SHOPPING [yay, i'm so excited *big smile*], sleep a hundred years [harhar, i SO wish], eat FOOD FOOD GOOD FOOD [o yeah, and gain weight *hehehe MOO-arharhar*], and yet... i wanna save money... -.-... how contradicting... box me pls...
oookay... i gotta go nap, cos i'm VERY tired and sleep and either one or both... den i complete my stat's cheat-sheet - one more chapter!!! yay... den i go meet my dear, and i gotta to buy pen from popular. =D
love u world!!! =]
o yeah, Dear God, i love u too... =] huggies...
goodnight!!!
Au Revoir!
it's 4th december... i've got a final paper tmr... STAT 1060... YAY~!!!...
=D yay yay yay=]
sis went hongkong yesterday... =] i realise, SERIOUSLY, my sis is such an adorable human-being... =] u should go into facebook to look at her pictures... HARHAR... how can u not love her...
o yeah... and i love my brothers too!!! =] so CUTE lar alamak... =] Lumpy is beside me now... =] hehehe... ARRRRRHHHHHH =] hehehe. SO CUTE!!! =] and my didi is there near my window... i think he's sleeping, but not very sure cos his eyes are open. =] HARHAR =] so cute!!!
had econs paper today... den during lunch today i realise i'm REALLY blessed... i have my hubbie, i have my brothers and sisters in Christ, i have friends who go crazy calling me a cowcow which i'm not [i'm SO not a cow, i don't look like one, those who say i look like one are just blinded by my BRIGHT-ness], i have my dear tigger and lumpy brothers, i got my family, i have a roof over my head, i have a bed, i have 2 pillows for my big-brain [HARHAR come'on laugh with me, hahaha], i've got a bolster to help me feel warm at night, i have my FAVOURITE lime-green furry blanket, i've got a table, i have a chair, i have a laptop, i have contact lenses that is my mum's attempt to make me look prettier [though i'm abit blind now], i've got shoes and slippers and heels [though the heels absolutely kill me sometimes], i've got my PRECIOUS handphone [that's why i SO don't need to carry an extra load of an mp3 player - my phone is fantastic man], i've got clothes [enough to keep me warm, helps me NOT feel naked; and enough to make me feel human - i'm NOT a cow], i've got tissue boxes in my room [i figured in some countries u only find those at hotels], i have air-con and fan in my room, i've got heater in my bathroom, ... ... i've got my darling darling piano... and last and definitely not the least - in fact this is the best [they always say save the best for the last] - i have God... =]
yay monday going hubbie's place - movie marathon... YAY!!! =] i'm still trying to persuade him to let me bring my third brother tigger along... =] hehehe... dear, i love u, HUGGIES... =]
o yeah... i can't wait to go SHOPPING, SLACKING... i wanna buy clothes, buy shoes, cut hair [mum, PLS i don't wanna rebond my hair - it'd look like barbie's hair when dry and mee-sua when wet], clear my room [maybe only, hehehehe, but most likely it'd have to wait, WAR HARAHR], buy files, buy more tigger stuff, do CHRISTMAS SHOPPING [yay, i'm so excited *big smile*], sleep a hundred years [harhar, i SO wish], eat FOOD FOOD GOOD FOOD [o yeah, and gain weight *hehehe MOO-arharhar*], and yet... i wanna save money... -.-... how contradicting... box me pls...
oookay... i gotta go nap, cos i'm VERY tired and sleep and either one or both... den i complete my stat's cheat-sheet - one more chapter!!! yay... den i go meet my dear, and i gotta to buy pen from popular. =D
love u world!!! =]
o yeah, Dear God, i love u too... =] huggies...
goodnight!!!
Au Revoir!
Monday, November 24, 2008
oh boy...
hello world...
i was SUPPOSED to be studying... i came online with the intention of doing IRHR [org behavior] notes on M.Word... ended up being on the phone with Penguin [valerie the crazy girl] and talked to her and Twin [cherylynn the cat] on msn... and they were LAUGHING at me...
twin challenged me to eat one Mega-Burger every alternate day after exams... HAHAHA =] i'm SO up to it man... =] 50kg here i come!!! =]
MOO-arh harhar =]... penguin just can't stop laughing and i can't stop laughing at her laughing at me... and she laughs at me and i laugh at her again, so technically we are laughing at each other laugh at each other... HARHAR... omg sounds farny... hahaha =]
my hubbie is sick today... =/ went out to eat buffet at Pariss at M.Square... den watched CHIHUAHUA!!! =] den went to explanade... watched the jazz people play abit [a pity, couldn't really keep time, and the saxophone guy is so so not Kenny G who is so so awesome... hahaha] den walked around... den i managed to WIN my hubbie, and i convinced him we go off at 845... den in the end left abit earlier... cos he wasn't well... fever and flu and cough... aiyo, make me feel guilty lar... ___ dear, i TOLD u that u weren't well, u don't believe me; i should SO be a doctor... next time listen to me k, otherwise i won't let u bring me home in future. hahaha... =] huggies, get well soon!!! =] ___ cab home... den he went home... den Sunshine [moi] went to bathe, den put the roses in a nice cup, den called hubbie, prayed, hubbie went to lala-land to recuperate... and i studied...
so now. i'm supposed to be studying... and i'm blogging... for the obvious reasons... =]
dear Alicia and Tara the squirrel and carolyn and whomever... =] sorry lar... i know u miss me and i know u know i miss u... anyway... i rEALLY do. =] bei, i owe u movie marathon hor... and your b-day pressie. =] soon. after my exams... =] love ya all crazy animals alot!!! =] Take care and God bless k... =]
okay. i shall go study now. as in, really. yeah. =]
byby world... =] *cowcow waves* =]
huggies dear earth... =]
huggies Abba Father...
i was SUPPOSED to be studying... i came online with the intention of doing IRHR [org behavior] notes on M.Word... ended up being on the phone with Penguin [valerie the crazy girl] and talked to her and Twin [cherylynn the cat] on msn... and they were LAUGHING at me...
twin challenged me to eat one Mega-Burger every alternate day after exams... HAHAHA =] i'm SO up to it man... =] 50kg here i come!!! =]
MOO-arh harhar =]... penguin just can't stop laughing and i can't stop laughing at her laughing at me... and she laughs at me and i laugh at her again, so technically we are laughing at each other laugh at each other... HARHAR... omg sounds farny... hahaha =]
my hubbie is sick today... =/ went out to eat buffet at Pariss at M.Square... den watched CHIHUAHUA!!! =] den went to explanade... watched the jazz people play abit [a pity, couldn't really keep time, and the saxophone guy is so so not Kenny G who is so so awesome... hahaha] den walked around... den i managed to WIN my hubbie, and i convinced him we go off at 845... den in the end left abit earlier... cos he wasn't well... fever and flu and cough... aiyo, make me feel guilty lar... ___ dear, i TOLD u that u weren't well, u don't believe me; i should SO be a doctor... next time listen to me k, otherwise i won't let u bring me home in future. hahaha... =] huggies, get well soon!!! =] ___ cab home... den he went home... den Sunshine [moi] went to bathe, den put the roses in a nice cup, den called hubbie, prayed, hubbie went to lala-land to recuperate... and i studied...
so now. i'm supposed to be studying... and i'm blogging... for the obvious reasons... =]
dear Alicia and Tara the squirrel and carolyn and whomever... =] sorry lar... i know u miss me and i know u know i miss u... anyway... i rEALLY do. =] bei, i owe u movie marathon hor... and your b-day pressie. =] soon. after my exams... =] love ya all crazy animals alot!!! =] Take care and God bless k... =]
okay. i shall go study now. as in, really. yeah. =]
byby world... =] *cowcow waves* =]
huggies dear earth... =]
huggies Abba Father...
Friday, November 14, 2008
love my twin
hello world!!!...
yeah my twin, cherylynn... =] she tied plaits for me today during stats lab class...
harhar... =]
love u twin!!! =]
harhar... and i love my dear too... =]
okay. gonna go back to class... byby... =]
Au Revoir... =]
yeah my twin, cherylynn... =] she tied plaits for me today during stats lab class...
harhar... =]
love u twin!!! =]
harhar... and i love my dear too... =]
okay. gonna go back to class... byby... =]
Au Revoir... =]
Sunday, November 9, 2008
why is it
yea... why is it... dear world...
i'm nice. people are troubled, i'll be there to hear them out and support them if i could.
yet... they worry that something happens to me if it's a male that i'm talking to... he's my junior... wrong to watch out for him... he's troubled, wrong to pray with him on my own... he doesn't want to tell other people but me, wrong for me to even LET him talk to me alone...
i'm sorry... for me, things just don't flow this way lor... i'm stuck in between... if u want me to be confined with RULES as to HOW i should HELP and SUPPORT my brothers and sisters in Christ, then fine.
i won't care any less; i won't care more either.
i'm pissed off. yes... i just don't see how this works lor... seriously... Jesus worked with males and females, in groups and alone... come on...
why am i disappointed... i'm not supposed to be... i have a dear that was WAY beyond what i prayed for, and i know to have him is my blessing... look at the things now... caroling, in a mess... p&w team, in a mess... youth, in a mess...
someone asked me if ever i would leave, when that would be... haha... looks like it ain't anytime soon... so much needs to be done... when i was free and offering my help, nothing was done... now when i'm having exams soon and swarmed by priorities they come and put me ic for this and wanna "bring [me] up"... how right is that...
is this the Lord's timing?
huggies Father, i love You... =]
dear world, i will continue to pray for u... =]
and to me dear hubbie, thank God for u... =] such a wonderful wonderful blessing to have u in my life... =] huggies. =]
and to my animal friends and friends... God bless you!!! =]
and last but not least, dear brother tiggers... =] u are SO adorable and lovable... =] love u loads!!! =] hehehe...
Au Revoir!!!
i'm nice. people are troubled, i'll be there to hear them out and support them if i could.
yet... they worry that something happens to me if it's a male that i'm talking to... he's my junior... wrong to watch out for him... he's troubled, wrong to pray with him on my own... he doesn't want to tell other people but me, wrong for me to even LET him talk to me alone...
i'm sorry... for me, things just don't flow this way lor... i'm stuck in between... if u want me to be confined with RULES as to HOW i should HELP and SUPPORT my brothers and sisters in Christ, then fine.
i won't care any less; i won't care more either.
i'm pissed off. yes... i just don't see how this works lor... seriously... Jesus worked with males and females, in groups and alone... come on...
why am i disappointed... i'm not supposed to be... i have a dear that was WAY beyond what i prayed for, and i know to have him is my blessing... look at the things now... caroling, in a mess... p&w team, in a mess... youth, in a mess...
someone asked me if ever i would leave, when that would be... haha... looks like it ain't anytime soon... so much needs to be done... when i was free and offering my help, nothing was done... now when i'm having exams soon and swarmed by priorities they come and put me ic for this and wanna "bring [me] up"... how right is that...
is this the Lord's timing?
huggies Father, i love You... =]
dear world, i will continue to pray for u... =]
and to me dear hubbie, thank God for u... =] such a wonderful wonderful blessing to have u in my life... =] huggies. =]
and to my animal friends and friends... God bless you!!! =]
and last but not least, dear brother tiggers... =] u are SO adorable and lovable... =] love u loads!!! =] hehehe...
Au Revoir!!!
Thursday, October 23, 2008
yay =]
hey hey dear world... =]
okay... we're together... =] 21 oct 2008. =]
yay i'm so glad i saw bug yesterday... =]
anyway i'm having flu... i think i was abit sad today... and piano didn't really go well lar... sorry dear, bear with me awhile... Huggies =]
hm... been thinking about why i went into uni in the first place... hm... it's like i suddenly don't have that kinda drive to study anymore... maybe i chiong too much in jc... i just want to live a simple life... why can't my parents approve and understand...
will i take diploma? of course... but when do i have the time to practice my piano? only God knows...
'm trying to cope with school-work - it's like suddenly i realise our tutorials are a wste of time, yet i never found courage to pon any class... allison, u need to get to your books soon... better not wait for too long. =]
HUGGIES dear world... =] Huggies Father in heaven...
i gtg... byby =]
Au Revoir!!! =]
okay... we're together... =] 21 oct 2008. =]
yay i'm so glad i saw bug yesterday... =]
anyway i'm having flu... i think i was abit sad today... and piano didn't really go well lar... sorry dear, bear with me awhile... Huggies =]
hm... been thinking about why i went into uni in the first place... hm... it's like i suddenly don't have that kinda drive to study anymore... maybe i chiong too much in jc... i just want to live a simple life... why can't my parents approve and understand...
will i take diploma? of course... but when do i have the time to practice my piano? only God knows...
'm trying to cope with school-work - it's like suddenly i realise our tutorials are a wste of time, yet i never found courage to pon any class... allison, u need to get to your books soon... better not wait for too long. =]
HUGGIES dear world... =] Huggies Father in heaven...
i gtg... byby =]
Au Revoir!!! =]
Sunday, October 12, 2008
blur me... hahaha =]
i think i'm prob blur for a good cause...
anyway... here's what...
he told me he likes me... =] hehehe... so sweet lar. =] hahaha...
but... God shall be our main focus here... what came to me to day was this... Jesus, my FIRM FOUNDATION... =] and Lord Jesus, i'll never ever let u go... =] God is my first love and will always be... my hubbie is my number 2. =]
i got a new brother tigger!!! =] hehehe... yay =]
okay okay... alli, go do your accounts... NOW...
=] Au Revoir!!!
anyway... here's what...
he told me he likes me... =] hehehe... so sweet lar. =] hahaha...
but... God shall be our main focus here... what came to me to day was this... Jesus, my FIRM FOUNDATION... =] and Lord Jesus, i'll never ever let u go... =] God is my first love and will always be... my hubbie is my number 2. =]
i got a new brother tigger!!! =] hehehe... yay =]
okay okay... alli, go do your accounts... NOW...
=] Au Revoir!!!
Thursday, October 9, 2008
no distinction
128 / 150... 2 marks to a Distinction....
Alex was so sweet today... harhar... he said i was special. hahaha. =] hardly anyone'd say that bout me. though i know i'm special... HARHAR [so bu-yao-lian man]...
but somehow i still feel like crying... haix. i worked so hard for it... so hard... so hard... so hard... so hard... so darn hard...
how many times my fingers bleed, my nails chip, my skin peel and my fingers ache... cos of practicing in the air-con... and i didn't get distinction that i was CAPABLE of getting...
i just had to freaking freak out during exam...
and i'm Top CMS student... i think i'm the joke of the year...
Dear God, i know i didn't do well, but i still trust You... please take this sadness away, i can barely stand it any longer... maybe my parents are not very proud of me now, but will You be? if You are disappointed, i'm sorry, i'll work harder in anything else You ask me to do...
haix. i'm sad but i'm not that sad. this is so agonizing...
*CRIES* haix. i failed man... Miss Koh... u dumb ass...
haix...
Alex was so sweet today... harhar... he said i was special. hahaha. =] hardly anyone'd say that bout me. though i know i'm special... HARHAR [so bu-yao-lian man]...
but somehow i still feel like crying... haix. i worked so hard for it... so hard... so hard... so hard... so hard... so darn hard...
how many times my fingers bleed, my nails chip, my skin peel and my fingers ache... cos of practicing in the air-con... and i didn't get distinction that i was CAPABLE of getting...
i just had to freaking freak out during exam...
and i'm Top CMS student... i think i'm the joke of the year...
Dear God, i know i didn't do well, but i still trust You... please take this sadness away, i can barely stand it any longer... maybe my parents are not very proud of me now, but will You be? if You are disappointed, i'm sorry, i'll work harder in anything else You ask me to do...
haix. i'm sad but i'm not that sad. this is so agonizing...
*CRIES* haix. i failed man... Miss Koh... u dumb ass...
haix...
Saturday, September 6, 2008
o yeah
i'm gonna watch WALL.E with squirrel soon!!!
woohoo... hahaha... i heard the show's super cute... =]
yay yay... and i need to get bei's bd pressie... harhar. =]
and so many people's bd comin... sihui de merlion... my mum... ju-neh the sexy momo... mildred... kaijian... sze min... fang jie...
woo woo =]
i got atm card. but i can't stand using it. why can't we just use cash...
okay. i just finished my tutorial... i shall go sleep =]
Au Revoir!!!
woohoo... hahaha... i heard the show's super cute... =]
yay yay... and i need to get bei's bd pressie... harhar. =]
and so many people's bd comin... sihui de merlion... my mum... ju-neh the sexy momo... mildred... kaijian... sze min... fang jie...
woo woo =]
i got atm card. but i can't stand using it. why can't we just use cash...
okay. i just finished my tutorial... i shall go sleep =]
Au Revoir!!!
love Uni life!!! =]
hello to this world that God created... woohoo...
so cool lar, uni life is actually quite fun... before start of school i thought it'd be boring and so lame and so tiring and so dry and many other negative stuff... then i realised... hey, not so bad after all... to Cheryl from SPC, thanks alot for the encouragement u've given me! and to Genesis Youth, thanks for all the support and encouragement... and for all the fun times together... =]
updates:
UoN = University of Newcastle, Australia.
UoN friends: Valerie the Mad-Girl-who-can't-stop-laughing [she said i was sweet when i told her "i love u" after STAT 1060 lecture, so farny lar she], Sam the one who says don't-miss-me, Crystal the gentle demure one, Cherylynn Koh my "sister", Ling Shan, Grace the sweetie, Kelvin who asks tonnes of questions [it's a good thing, don't worry; i like to ask questions too :) haha], Joycelyn, Ryan the quiet guy, Jye Ying [from my STAT project group], Hui Yu [STAT project group], Chun-Chun pronounced zhun-zhun [STAT project group], Carissa [Stats class], Desiree [tutorial class], and many others... =]
campus:
- pathetic stall that sells food that's beyond my budget...
- funny tutors
- funny lecturers
- near Tiong Bahru Plaza
mad-val told me bout this tigger toy from BHG... the photo's on her blog - woohoo! so cute sia!!! =] less than 10-bugs... maybe will buy... see my pocket got $$ or not... harhar... =]
i'm supposed to be doing my Accounting tutorial questions now... hahah...
o yeah! ABRSM Piano Grade 8 exam on Monday, 8/9/08. at 1211. pray for me hor... =] just think of me will do lar, hahaha, i'm sure i'll do okay... just hoping to get Distinction... =] to thank my Teacher Mr Wong Leang Inn for teaching me... =]
tmr:
- CHURCH!!!
- attending 915 and 1130 service.
- after service gotta RUSH home to bathe.
- CMSFA Musicale cum Award Presentation... i'm Top Student of Hougang Branch!!! =] yay...
yeah... okay... nothing much. love life, nah... hahaha... ask me personally maybe i tell u... hahaha =] =] =]
20 sept fishing outing from 7 am to 7 pm... i'm inviting my dad to come fish with my cell group... anybody wanna come make new friends?!?!?!?!? u're invited =]
harhar... i shall focus and do tutorial. den later study my Aural and all the names of the composers from different periods... after dinner i'll go down to CMS to practice a few hours... =]
i LOVE my new laptop... =] hahaha =]...
okay... i gotta go. like, now... =]
byby =)
Au Revoir!!!
so cool lar, uni life is actually quite fun... before start of school i thought it'd be boring and so lame and so tiring and so dry and many other negative stuff... then i realised... hey, not so bad after all... to Cheryl from SPC, thanks alot for the encouragement u've given me! and to Genesis Youth, thanks for all the support and encouragement... and for all the fun times together... =]
updates:
UoN = University of Newcastle, Australia.
UoN friends: Valerie the Mad-Girl-who-can't-stop-laughing [she said i was sweet when i told her "i love u" after STAT 1060 lecture, so farny lar she], Sam the one who says don't-miss-me, Crystal the gentle demure one, Cherylynn Koh my "sister", Ling Shan, Grace the sweetie, Kelvin who asks tonnes of questions [it's a good thing, don't worry; i like to ask questions too :) haha], Joycelyn, Ryan the quiet guy, Jye Ying [from my STAT project group], Hui Yu [STAT project group], Chun-Chun pronounced zhun-zhun [STAT project group], Carissa [Stats class], Desiree [tutorial class], and many others... =]
campus:
- pathetic stall that sells food that's beyond my budget...
- funny tutors
- funny lecturers
- near Tiong Bahru Plaza
mad-val told me bout this tigger toy from BHG... the photo's on her blog - woohoo! so cute sia!!! =] less than 10-bugs... maybe will buy... see my pocket got $$ or not... harhar... =]
i'm supposed to be doing my Accounting tutorial questions now... hahah...
o yeah! ABRSM Piano Grade 8 exam on Monday, 8/9/08. at 1211. pray for me hor... =] just think of me will do lar, hahaha, i'm sure i'll do okay... just hoping to get Distinction... =] to thank my Teacher Mr Wong Leang Inn for teaching me... =]
tmr:
- CHURCH!!!
- attending 915 and 1130 service.
- after service gotta RUSH home to bathe.
- CMSFA Musicale cum Award Presentation... i'm Top Student of Hougang Branch!!! =] yay...
yeah... okay... nothing much. love life, nah... hahaha... ask me personally maybe i tell u... hahaha =] =] =]
20 sept fishing outing from 7 am to 7 pm... i'm inviting my dad to come fish with my cell group... anybody wanna come make new friends?!?!?!?!? u're invited =]
harhar... i shall focus and do tutorial. den later study my Aural and all the names of the composers from different periods... after dinner i'll go down to CMS to practice a few hours... =]
i LOVE my new laptop... =] hahaha =]...
okay... i gotta go. like, now... =]
byby =)
Au Revoir!!!
Sunday, August 17, 2008
ARG - alli the lagger
i hate technology.
handphone - laggy.
computer - died.
laptops - lagi [means, even more] laggy.
-.-
talked to huda, met up with bei, msg-ed carol-de-nut, msged reetha my fellow moo-moo, msged sihui the angel...
hua. now i know - life without the computer [or rather msn] is just horrible... wa lao.
anyway, hm.
1. don't particularly LIKE anyone now... [actually have, but dunno is considered have or not, cos like, still pending, harhar - bei, shuddup man]... waiting for my prince to come find me instead. hahaha.
2. starting school @ Psb Academy on 25 August 2008, Monday. =] yay.
3. love serving church. thinking of joining Boys' Brigade as female officer [yay! more footdrill! WOO, harhar =)...] since i was approached by Pastor Gary. hm, see how... =]
4. my grade 8 PIANO exam is on 8 September 2008, Monday. O man... pray for me. =]
5. yay, i'm REALLY top CMS student of Hougang branch.
okay. i'm not using my own com, so i gotta zhao [get lost] now... =] anyway, i miss all my friends man. harhar...
o yeah. church Camp end of year, open to friends too!!! wanna come wanna come?!?! =]
hahah... okay. i gotta disappeaer this moment. like, now.
Au Revoir.
handphone - laggy.
computer - died.
laptops - lagi [means, even more] laggy.
-.-
talked to huda, met up with bei, msg-ed carol-de-nut, msged reetha my fellow moo-moo, msged sihui the angel...
hua. now i know - life without the computer [or rather msn] is just horrible... wa lao.
anyway, hm.
1. don't particularly LIKE anyone now... [actually have, but dunno is considered have or not, cos like, still pending, harhar - bei, shuddup man]... waiting for my prince to come find me instead. hahaha.
2. starting school @ Psb Academy on 25 August 2008, Monday. =] yay.
3. love serving church. thinking of joining Boys' Brigade as female officer [yay! more footdrill! WOO, harhar =)...] since i was approached by Pastor Gary. hm, see how... =]
4. my grade 8 PIANO exam is on 8 September 2008, Monday. O man... pray for me. =]
5. yay, i'm REALLY top CMS student of Hougang branch.
okay. i'm not using my own com, so i gotta zhao [get lost] now... =] anyway, i miss all my friends man. harhar...
o yeah. church Camp end of year, open to friends too!!! wanna come wanna come?!?! =]
hahah... okay. i gotta disappeaer this moment. like, now.
Au Revoir.
Wednesday, July 2, 2008
renewed creation in Christ
yay. i'm so glad. hahah. =] woke up this morning and i was like singing out "thank You Lord"... hahaha. mad. o ya and my Lumpy is SOOOOOO adorable. hahaha...
'm eyeing this thingy from kovan. but not sure yet. hm... it's a note-book holder, and it's LIME-GREEN!!! =] har har...
o yeah. apologies. i couldn't get online cos com crash, and when i used my mum's com i couldn't blog lar... yeah. hahaha.
'm thinking of going into mdis, or take the university of newcastle degree in marketing and management... hmm, i'm not crazy about the course, but it's at least what i can BE interested in. whether i will end up doing direct sales or the back-up supporting sales coordinating, i guess yeah, even if i don't like it THAT much, i'd have to further my education. so here i go. =] 'm thinking pick a school close to home, so at least i don't have to travel too much. and i gotta think about cost too, cos mum also wants to further her education and i don't want her to spend a cosmic bomb on me - gotta save some for herself and my sis too...
'm thinking after taking grade 8 i'd start teaching piano part-time at any music school - either kovan or at Cristofori lor. =] YAY... i hope i get my distinction...
o ya. and i'm Top Student of the Year 2008 =] YAY!!! hahaha. =] i'm so glad, my teacher nominated me. so yeah. =]
yay, cell group at my house this friday, and gotta celebrate Alex's birthday... hahaha. i leave this plan unto You, dear God. =]
okay i gotta go do research. =]
Au Revoir!!!
'm eyeing this thingy from kovan. but not sure yet. hm... it's a note-book holder, and it's LIME-GREEN!!! =] har har...
o yeah. apologies. i couldn't get online cos com crash, and when i used my mum's com i couldn't blog lar... yeah. hahaha.
'm thinking of going into mdis, or take the university of newcastle degree in marketing and management... hmm, i'm not crazy about the course, but it's at least what i can BE interested in. whether i will end up doing direct sales or the back-up supporting sales coordinating, i guess yeah, even if i don't like it THAT much, i'd have to further my education. so here i go. =] 'm thinking pick a school close to home, so at least i don't have to travel too much. and i gotta think about cost too, cos mum also wants to further her education and i don't want her to spend a cosmic bomb on me - gotta save some for herself and my sis too...
'm thinking after taking grade 8 i'd start teaching piano part-time at any music school - either kovan or at Cristofori lor. =] YAY... i hope i get my distinction...
o ya. and i'm Top Student of the Year 2008 =] YAY!!! hahaha. =] i'm so glad, my teacher nominated me. so yeah. =]
yay, cell group at my house this friday, and gotta celebrate Alex's birthday... hahaha. i leave this plan unto You, dear God. =]
okay i gotta go do research. =]
Au Revoir!!!
Saturday, June 21, 2008
you have no right to walk my Christian life for me
you said that my parents are responsible for my life. then u say i'm answerable to God about the things i do.
you go on saying i'm gungho and too passionate about going to church. so you say that service, cell-group and quiet-time prayers are enough. i tutor people who are sec 2 and you say i should let people who are better than me tutor them, when nobody is there? you mean i have to be a degree-holder before i can tutor some sec 2? yes? what if i said you have to be a pastor to be able to tell how to live my life?
look at yourself, i don't wanna judge you, but how are u a better christian than i am. don't think u brought me into Christ means i have to listen to you. it doesn't go that way. it is stated in the bible, worship the Lord your God and serve Him only. i don't follow other instructions other than God's word.
you ask me to do what's necessary now. like what? u all adults do things with your head and not your brains. ask me to find a 5-day/week job, den u want me to get a Distinction - to make the dollars and cents invested in my music education bloody worthwhile - that requires at least 5 hours a day. you led me into Christianity and i worship God and i serve Him and now u tell me 3 activities for God is enough. aren't you all freaking contradicting yourselves?
you then say that i should do what i need to do, then you tell me if i'm free i can go talk to my relatives. don't be crazy. what i need - uni plans, packing my room - are all done. and don't expect me to talk to my relatives cos they don't walk MY christian life for me.
so you, should totally stop budging and cutting into my path. get out of my way.
i'm so angry. so angry. so so angry. i'm hurt. you don't spare a thought for other people's feelings and u're in no right to lecture me in my life. look into yours first, i have enough help from the Holy Spirit.
mass-killer.
you go on saying i'm gungho and too passionate about going to church. so you say that service, cell-group and quiet-time prayers are enough. i tutor people who are sec 2 and you say i should let people who are better than me tutor them, when nobody is there? you mean i have to be a degree-holder before i can tutor some sec 2? yes? what if i said you have to be a pastor to be able to tell how to live my life?
look at yourself, i don't wanna judge you, but how are u a better christian than i am. don't think u brought me into Christ means i have to listen to you. it doesn't go that way. it is stated in the bible, worship the Lord your God and serve Him only. i don't follow other instructions other than God's word.
you ask me to do what's necessary now. like what? u all adults do things with your head and not your brains. ask me to find a 5-day/week job, den u want me to get a Distinction - to make the dollars and cents invested in my music education bloody worthwhile - that requires at least 5 hours a day. you led me into Christianity and i worship God and i serve Him and now u tell me 3 activities for God is enough. aren't you all freaking contradicting yourselves?
you then say that i should do what i need to do, then you tell me if i'm free i can go talk to my relatives. don't be crazy. what i need - uni plans, packing my room - are all done. and don't expect me to talk to my relatives cos they don't walk MY christian life for me.
so you, should totally stop budging and cutting into my path. get out of my way.
i'm so angry. so angry. so so angry. i'm hurt. you don't spare a thought for other people's feelings and u're in no right to lecture me in my life. look into yours first, i have enough help from the Holy Spirit.
mass-killer.
Saturday, June 14, 2008
i wanna go ARMY!!!
hello world... i'm back... finaly got time to come online...
not much time actually. now it's 2308 and i gotta go for family outing at Tree Top Walk tmr to celebrate Father's day... so i gotta sleep soon... quick update anyway...
thursday: sent Wei Hon to Pulau Tekong, morning: i went with ruth [the mad never-stop-laughing girl who keeps matchmaking me and WH or other people], leeroy - kum weng couldn't turn up [cos lao-sai den go hospital -.-]... met Wei Hon and his parents and brother Ben at White Sands mall. went to Pulau Tekong to send Wei Hon there, representing SPC lar. had tour around the compound. HUA the bed there is even thicker than my new STONE-HARD sponge mattress - those were SPRING beds lar!!! wa lao, if i go there it'll be like chalet for me. i so wanna go. ruth too. so see how. maybe lar. hahah. den had the "lecture" where they took their oath, hua, so cool man... and then we went for lunch with Wei Hon - one last time before we say goodbye - and the food there is FANTASTIC - wa lao, got dessert oso, chicken wing, satay. wa lao eh... den before he had to go off, we prayed for him. ya. he looked abit sad, but could see he's trying to be strong and face it. yeah... and then the "boys" went to fall in - in the shade. i repeat. they fall in under the SHADE. wa lao. i sorta exclaimed out loud and i guess people were looking at me, all the parents were like, dagger eyes. hahaha. HAHAHA. seriously lar, fall in under shade is hilarious to me. but well. maybe some of those guys maybe sissy or gay and they can't take it... so yeah... interesting though. they look so serious in squad... hahaha.
friday: skipped piano for ruth for nothing: i had to postpone lesson cos ruth called me say ruoping going amk hub and urgently needed pad. so i rushed to wait for them at hougang mall, den at hougang plaza, and then i saw the time, it is already 430. i COULD HAVE GONE FOR LESSON. and i got so angry, i msg ruth [cos i didn't wanna scream at her over the phone] that i was going home first and they're to call me when they're ready. den i walked home, so angry and all. den washed my hair cos i was so angry and needed to cool my brain. haiya... in the end met them at 5 plus... went to amk hub. movie fellowship with SPC Genesis youths: watched Kungfu Panda - OMGosh SUPER NICE i wanna watch again... and i SO love the music... hua... =] den after movie went to foodcourt to get a drink, den talked abit, den went home. i took 74 back with pauline - stupid bus, so crowded, hm, i know, not the bus' fault, fine. hm...
okay. i REALLY gotta go. i wanna train my singing again, and i'm training for army fitness now. HUA HAR HAR... =]
byby!!! God bless us, everyone!!! =]
Au Revoir!!!
not much time actually. now it's 2308 and i gotta go for family outing at Tree Top Walk tmr to celebrate Father's day... so i gotta sleep soon... quick update anyway...
thursday: sent Wei Hon to Pulau Tekong, morning: i went with ruth [the mad never-stop-laughing girl who keeps matchmaking me and WH or other people], leeroy - kum weng couldn't turn up [cos lao-sai den go hospital -.-]... met Wei Hon and his parents and brother Ben at White Sands mall. went to Pulau Tekong to send Wei Hon there, representing SPC lar. had tour around the compound. HUA the bed there is even thicker than my new STONE-HARD sponge mattress - those were SPRING beds lar!!! wa lao, if i go there it'll be like chalet for me. i so wanna go. ruth too. so see how. maybe lar. hahah. den had the "lecture" where they took their oath, hua, so cool man... and then we went for lunch with Wei Hon - one last time before we say goodbye - and the food there is FANTASTIC - wa lao, got dessert oso, chicken wing, satay. wa lao eh... den before he had to go off, we prayed for him. ya. he looked abit sad, but could see he's trying to be strong and face it. yeah... and then the "boys" went to fall in - in the shade. i repeat. they fall in under the SHADE. wa lao. i sorta exclaimed out loud and i guess people were looking at me, all the parents were like, dagger eyes. hahaha. HAHAHA. seriously lar, fall in under shade is hilarious to me. but well. maybe some of those guys maybe sissy or gay and they can't take it... so yeah... interesting though. they look so serious in squad... hahaha.
friday: skipped piano for ruth for nothing: i had to postpone lesson cos ruth called me say ruoping going amk hub and urgently needed pad. so i rushed to wait for them at hougang mall, den at hougang plaza, and then i saw the time, it is already 430. i COULD HAVE GONE FOR LESSON. and i got so angry, i msg ruth [cos i didn't wanna scream at her over the phone] that i was going home first and they're to call me when they're ready. den i walked home, so angry and all. den washed my hair cos i was so angry and needed to cool my brain. haiya... in the end met them at 5 plus... went to amk hub. movie fellowship with SPC Genesis youths: watched Kungfu Panda - OMGosh SUPER NICE i wanna watch again... and i SO love the music... hua... =] den after movie went to foodcourt to get a drink, den talked abit, den went home. i took 74 back with pauline - stupid bus, so crowded, hm, i know, not the bus' fault, fine. hm...
okay. i REALLY gotta go. i wanna train my singing again, and i'm training for army fitness now. HUA HAR HAR... =]
byby!!! God bless us, everyone!!! =]
Au Revoir!!!
Thursday, June 5, 2008
stupid appeal
hello world, all humans, animals and organisms... living and dead... [haix, ignore me man. i actually talk to the dead. -.-]...
did my appeal to NUS already. waste my time thinking what to write, cos i thought i was 1000 WORDS; turned out it's 1000 CHARACTERS inclusive of spaces and punctuation. [wth]
wanna express thanks to my uncle Siew Loong who helped me edit my appeal, thought abit in vain. but his version was best and most concise. i tend to be to descriptive and too detailed. well, i'm a typical arts student, i think that everything detail is important.
ANYWAY, apologies to Bei; was supposed to go out today, den didn't make plans, etc...
this morning: 24-hour prayer slot from 5-6 am [hua, "AM" lei...]: i prayed for many things, from myself, to family, all the way till ministor mentor LKY... really meaningful. i dunno, but somehow i spoke in whatever language it was yesterday, and since i dunno what it is, i presume it's tongues cos i didn't seem to be aware of what [bullshit] i was rambling out during the youth prayer slot. praise God. =]
jinrong FINALLY came online. i saw her friend's photo already, somehoe MAYBE i look like her but it's so SMALL and MINUTE a possibility that our personalities are alike. hahaha. maybe she's my long lost sister. or even a twin. HAR HAR HAR... omg... BEWARE: existance of another Allison... HUA HAR HAR HAR...
WAH har har [i'm mad]...
what else. hm. need to help Xie Li find a new place to rent cos she doesn't wanna stay there any longer. hope either me, sheena, leo or steven can find a place for her... near hougang or kovan or sengkand. anybody knows, lemme know pls. =] tanks [really big tanks to u if u can find one for me, as in, tanks, u know, army tanks. HAR HAR HAR HAR...........]...
recently, that girl kept sticking to me... spent the WHOLE praise and worship session during youth service staring straight to her right, at me. omg sia... talk about thriller. this one is called night-mare. not just a mare. night-dragon [WAHHHHHH harhahahahahaha... ignore me.]...
aiya. mei at camp. i'm so bored now. later dinner at 6. it's 5 now. tell me what to do. stuff myself with prawn crackers later i cannot devour my precious dinner. alamak. mafan lar... my dad just suan me say i constipation like my mum, i told mum online, and she suan me back say i FOS [full of shit, a family lingo for species like me and my dad, also the nickname my mum gave me of all names] like my dad... wa lao. so i kenna bomb twice... i shall scratch head [for those who don't know, scratch head is to take the opportunity to point middle finger when your finger is nicely hidden in your head of hair, well, apparently it's not suitable for those whom are bald. hahahahaha. come on man, laugh. HAHAHAHA]...
i feel mad. i dunno wanna be lazy now or what... o ya... update: Piano exam yesterday: it went like this: i play scales, den one of the notes in treble range suddenly spoil and sustain on its own, i suspect maybe the hammer kenna stuck. and so as a result, since i had no choice but to be STUNNED [as in S T U N N E D by it], i made mistakes and stopped halfway through pieces. o great. there goes my distinction. okay, God, i know if i put u first, all is possible, fine, i hope to get an ABRSM Distinction den [hahaha, alamak, what a way to speak to God in, i'm supposed to speak fearfully, allison koh]...
yay. i can change my pillow case. i shall use the [de-de-de-der, de-de-de-der...] Heffalump pillow case liao... yay... =] wa har har...
alamak. i'm sleepy. i shall go read Bible. =]
o ya. i know rather random, but yeah. i wanna go see and dig mummies when i grow up. grow up, as in, when i'm older, don't expect me to grow in height other than when i wear heels. and Bei, don't laugh at me, idiot.
o ya. and BEI!!! thanks for your cookie... it was super nice and smells great - so much nicer than your stupid perfume; i rather smell like a cookie [=) hahaha]... when i make a cake or cookies [i meant, if i EVER succeed in the above mentioned expeditions in the kitchen], Bei will have the honour of eating it first. if she dies, you all know - don't eat what i made. HAHAHAHAHA i'm so evil... hahaha. sorry lar Bei... hahaha. thanks anyway... =]
and i'm so happy, i got the emoticon with missing teeth again!!! hahaha. so cute lar. =]
shit. i'm supposed to go read bible. okay. byby. =]
Au Revoir!
did my appeal to NUS already. waste my time thinking what to write, cos i thought i was 1000 WORDS; turned out it's 1000 CHARACTERS inclusive of spaces and punctuation. [wth]
wanna express thanks to my uncle Siew Loong who helped me edit my appeal, thought abit in vain. but his version was best and most concise. i tend to be to descriptive and too detailed. well, i'm a typical arts student, i think that everything detail is important.
ANYWAY, apologies to Bei; was supposed to go out today, den didn't make plans, etc...
this morning: 24-hour prayer slot from 5-6 am [hua, "AM" lei...]: i prayed for many things, from myself, to family, all the way till ministor mentor LKY... really meaningful. i dunno, but somehow i spoke in whatever language it was yesterday, and since i dunno what it is, i presume it's tongues cos i didn't seem to be aware of what [bullshit] i was rambling out during the youth prayer slot. praise God. =]
jinrong FINALLY came online. i saw her friend's photo already, somehoe MAYBE i look like her but it's so SMALL and MINUTE a possibility that our personalities are alike. hahaha. maybe she's my long lost sister. or even a twin. HAR HAR HAR... omg... BEWARE: existance of another Allison... HUA HAR HAR HAR...
WAH har har [i'm mad]...
what else. hm. need to help Xie Li find a new place to rent cos she doesn't wanna stay there any longer. hope either me, sheena, leo or steven can find a place for her... near hougang or kovan or sengkand. anybody knows, lemme know pls. =] tanks [really big tanks to u if u can find one for me, as in, tanks, u know, army tanks. HAR HAR HAR HAR...........]...
recently, that girl kept sticking to me... spent the WHOLE praise and worship session during youth service staring straight to her right, at me. omg sia... talk about thriller. this one is called night-mare. not just a mare. night-dragon [WAHHHHHH harhahahahahaha... ignore me.]...
aiya. mei at camp. i'm so bored now. later dinner at 6. it's 5 now. tell me what to do. stuff myself with prawn crackers later i cannot devour my precious dinner. alamak. mafan lar... my dad just suan me say i constipation like my mum, i told mum online, and she suan me back say i FOS [full of shit, a family lingo for species like me and my dad, also the nickname my mum gave me of all names] like my dad... wa lao. so i kenna bomb twice... i shall scratch head [for those who don't know, scratch head is to take the opportunity to point middle finger when your finger is nicely hidden in your head of hair, well, apparently it's not suitable for those whom are bald. hahahahaha. come on man, laugh. HAHAHAHA]...
i feel mad. i dunno wanna be lazy now or what... o ya... update: Piano exam yesterday: it went like this: i play scales, den one of the notes in treble range suddenly spoil and sustain on its own, i suspect maybe the hammer kenna stuck. and so as a result, since i had no choice but to be STUNNED [as in S T U N N E D by it], i made mistakes and stopped halfway through pieces. o great. there goes my distinction. okay, God, i know if i put u first, all is possible, fine, i hope to get an ABRSM Distinction den [hahaha, alamak, what a way to speak to God in, i'm supposed to speak fearfully, allison koh]...
yay. i can change my pillow case. i shall use the [de-de-de-der, de-de-de-der...] Heffalump pillow case liao... yay... =] wa har har...
alamak. i'm sleepy. i shall go read Bible. =]
o ya. i know rather random, but yeah. i wanna go see and dig mummies when i grow up. grow up, as in, when i'm older, don't expect me to grow in height other than when i wear heels. and Bei, don't laugh at me, idiot.
o ya. and BEI!!! thanks for your cookie... it was super nice and smells great - so much nicer than your stupid perfume; i rather smell like a cookie [=) hahaha]... when i make a cake or cookies [i meant, if i EVER succeed in the above mentioned expeditions in the kitchen], Bei will have the honour of eating it first. if she dies, you all know - don't eat what i made. HAHAHAHAHA i'm so evil... hahaha. sorry lar Bei... hahaha. thanks anyway... =]
and i'm so happy, i got the emoticon with missing teeth again!!! hahaha. so cute lar. =]
shit. i'm supposed to go read bible. okay. byby. =]
Au Revoir!
Monday, June 2, 2008
think of me, think of me fondly
hello world... =]
i come today to share a few videos... superb and marvelous...
feast your eyes and ears on these...
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=XjM1Lrsb7I8
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=o2GuK0kshNo
hmmm... o man. i wanna sing like her. har har...
piano exam this wed...
rejected from ntu, nus and smu. har har... God i still trust in Your plan for me... =]
i come today to share a few videos... superb and marvelous...
feast your eyes and ears on these...
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=XjM1Lrsb7I8
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=o2GuK0kshNo
hmmm... o man. i wanna sing like her. har har...
piano exam this wed...
rejected from ntu, nus and smu. har har... God i still trust in Your plan for me... =]
Tuesday, May 27, 2008
my tuesday at church
hello world!!!
today i went to church in the morning... supposed to meet ruth, den she kept postponing the morning call i was supposed to give her, till around 11+ when i was already in church, i called and she's still in bed. den alex came down to chat with me - p.s. he cut his hair, hahah - gave me 2 pieces of paper about tmr's prayer sessions i am to have with him and Pastor Gary at 2. den alex was like, "i'm hungry", and he rubbed his tummy [-.-] den called ruth. found out ruth had problems at home, he prayer for her through phone, i prayed too. den we went lunch with leeroy and Pastor Gary at Beer Garden... had a good chat, now i know Pastor Gary and Alex are horrible school students. hahaha. leeroy not so bad, just long hair during poly. i'm the best. har har...
den rachel called, and we went back to church to meet her. pauline came too. den saw leon. kumweng and benjamin came for bass lesson, den rachel went for worship lessons with kumweng. den later chatted with leeroy about the music theory syllabus, while eating prawn crackers outside Genesis Youth room [such salty crackers in the first packet, out of two]. rachel and pauline left to go bugis. i stayed awhile to help kumweng write the alphabets on top of his bass guitar score -hahaha, so funny ah, tried to explain between high and low B.
den went dinner with mum and dad and sis at the midnight curry whatever... mum and dad quarreled again, as usual.
marcus kept bugging to patch up, haix. i really am not keen on relationships now. as in, now as in, now. maybe it's because it's him. i dunno... i feel abit lazy to tell my friends, cos i know they'd kill me about this. so yeah...
watching Healing Hands now... hm. it's such a nice show. =]
i gtg liao. har har... tmr prayer session, to get rid of bad things and spirits and whatever bad memories, so i can heal properly and be pure and clean to worship God with all my heart and soul =]
Au Revoir!!! =]
today i went to church in the morning... supposed to meet ruth, den she kept postponing the morning call i was supposed to give her, till around 11+ when i was already in church, i called and she's still in bed. den alex came down to chat with me - p.s. he cut his hair, hahah - gave me 2 pieces of paper about tmr's prayer sessions i am to have with him and Pastor Gary at 2. den alex was like, "i'm hungry", and he rubbed his tummy [-.-] den called ruth. found out ruth had problems at home, he prayer for her through phone, i prayed too. den we went lunch with leeroy and Pastor Gary at Beer Garden... had a good chat, now i know Pastor Gary and Alex are horrible school students. hahaha. leeroy not so bad, just long hair during poly. i'm the best. har har...
den rachel called, and we went back to church to meet her. pauline came too. den saw leon. kumweng and benjamin came for bass lesson, den rachel went for worship lessons with kumweng. den later chatted with leeroy about the music theory syllabus, while eating prawn crackers outside Genesis Youth room [such salty crackers in the first packet, out of two]. rachel and pauline left to go bugis. i stayed awhile to help kumweng write the alphabets on top of his bass guitar score -hahaha, so funny ah, tried to explain between high and low B.
den went dinner with mum and dad and sis at the midnight curry whatever... mum and dad quarreled again, as usual.
marcus kept bugging to patch up, haix. i really am not keen on relationships now. as in, now as in, now. maybe it's because it's him. i dunno... i feel abit lazy to tell my friends, cos i know they'd kill me about this. so yeah...
watching Healing Hands now... hm. it's such a nice show. =]
i gtg liao. har har... tmr prayer session, to get rid of bad things and spirits and whatever bad memories, so i can heal properly and be pure and clean to worship God with all my heart and soul =]
Au Revoir!!! =]
Monday, May 26, 2008
God showed me a vision
hello world!!! =]
amazing thing to report. last night, 25 May 2008, sunday night. i was lying in bed, after finishing my prayers to God. i was starting to night-dream after i closed my prayer, and then i closed my eyes for a moment and i saw a scene - a shining light from the top left corner and hands reaching from bottom right towards the light. i thought maybe it was the effect of Hillsong United's concert saturday night, so i just opened my eyes and rolled in bed. then i closed my eyes and i saw that picture again. den i said, "Lord, please open my eyes so i can see", and the picture began to open up, i saw children. i saw some with eyes closed, some with with eyes open, some with tears rolling down their burnt cheeks. so i said a prayer for the children of the world, and i thanked God for this revelation that God still has work to be done in those parts of the world.
hmmm... dunno lar. i wanna watch Made of Honour!!! i shall yue bei...
i gtg go look at private universities now, in case ntu also rejects me like nus did. =/
hahaha... i shall go CONSUME my muffin now. bye!!!
Au Revoir!!!... =]
ps: God i love you!!!
amazing thing to report. last night, 25 May 2008, sunday night. i was lying in bed, after finishing my prayers to God. i was starting to night-dream after i closed my prayer, and then i closed my eyes for a moment and i saw a scene - a shining light from the top left corner and hands reaching from bottom right towards the light. i thought maybe it was the effect of Hillsong United's concert saturday night, so i just opened my eyes and rolled in bed. then i closed my eyes and i saw that picture again. den i said, "Lord, please open my eyes so i can see", and the picture began to open up, i saw children. i saw some with eyes closed, some with with eyes open, some with tears rolling down their burnt cheeks. so i said a prayer for the children of the world, and i thanked God for this revelation that God still has work to be done in those parts of the world.
hmmm... dunno lar. i wanna watch Made of Honour!!! i shall yue bei...
i gtg go look at private universities now, in case ntu also rejects me like nus did. =/
hahaha... i shall go CONSUME my muffin now. bye!!!
Au Revoir!!!... =]
ps: God i love you!!!
Saturday, May 24, 2008
better in time
hello world. i'm back on track.
just spent a week going to and from church. spent alot of time with church people, esp ruth and rachel. the two girls are abit more special to me, maybe cos' they're from hihs too. haha. hm. not bad lar, just that i could have spent more time on piano.
today piano, i got scolded. and i really wanted to burst into tears. i went back to church after lesson, den sat outside at Parish Hall, den i was like, dead. den ruth came out, den i buay-tahan, i told her i wanted to cry cos i was damn stressed. den she's so sweet, go borrow key for Goodness Hall, and i was abit reluctant at first cos i was scared of someone who kept pestering me [i can't say the person's name yet lar, but i try not to burst out in rage or fly at him in temper, thought it's really difficult, seriously], den she said she'll open the door den i can fly in. anyway later on the person had gone to play with elias, so yeah, i'm safe. har har.
today cell, abit different. alex did things differently. out ice-breaker, lucky i didn't get the forfeit man, hahaha. i did my revision of books of the bible. hahaha. yay. sheena came today, finally lar she. today's cell was great man - thanks alex =).
collected my instrument from mr ng, he drove into church to pass it to me. went into parish hall again, open the case, hua, my lao-gong [i mean, the trombone] looks so shuai sia!!! har har har. i went to do buzzing for awhile den kept mouthpiece back. chatted with alex while waiting for the rest of the cell group to turn up; found out he was a trombonist, but for a year only. hahaha [suddenly i remembered Mr Tan TH telling us during band prac when i was still at hihs that brass players, predominantly trombonists, are good kissers, HAR HAR HAR].
tmr i'm thinking if i wanna go for hihs band, i got my crazy cough again. i won't play if i go, anyway i got no scores cos my printer is down.
o yay. yeah. i wanna say this. praise God. i can't believe all the things He did to me, for me and in me. so many things. i really couldn't have done it without Him.
i'm sleepy. i shall go sleep [remembered, i have to tell ruth to stop dreaming about me and that guy, horrible girl she, mad mad mad]. i hope ruth and rachel will take initiative to learn and study hard, i think they can both do well if they want to. and i pray leon and rachel and whomever is learning piano with me will be well-taught by the Holy Spirit, and that the Holy Spirit will be my guide as to how i am to teach and impart my knowledge to them in the most precise and clear manner.
just picked mei from side gate since she had no key. she walked like a zombie. for a few moments, i was thinking if it's me, i'd probably have to walk alone, no one to lean on except God, no one who cares if i reach home with peace-at-heart except God. but well, i'm the da-jie, i have to be strong.
haix.
and one more thing: thank God for music in my life. =] i just LURVE it.
Au Revoir!!!
just spent a week going to and from church. spent alot of time with church people, esp ruth and rachel. the two girls are abit more special to me, maybe cos' they're from hihs too. haha. hm. not bad lar, just that i could have spent more time on piano.
today piano, i got scolded. and i really wanted to burst into tears. i went back to church after lesson, den sat outside at Parish Hall, den i was like, dead. den ruth came out, den i buay-tahan, i told her i wanted to cry cos i was damn stressed. den she's so sweet, go borrow key for Goodness Hall, and i was abit reluctant at first cos i was scared of someone who kept pestering me [i can't say the person's name yet lar, but i try not to burst out in rage or fly at him in temper, thought it's really difficult, seriously], den she said she'll open the door den i can fly in. anyway later on the person had gone to play with elias, so yeah, i'm safe. har har.
today cell, abit different. alex did things differently. out ice-breaker, lucky i didn't get the forfeit man, hahaha. i did my revision of books of the bible. hahaha. yay. sheena came today, finally lar she. today's cell was great man - thanks alex =).
collected my instrument from mr ng, he drove into church to pass it to me. went into parish hall again, open the case, hua, my lao-gong [i mean, the trombone] looks so shuai sia!!! har har har. i went to do buzzing for awhile den kept mouthpiece back. chatted with alex while waiting for the rest of the cell group to turn up; found out he was a trombonist, but for a year only. hahaha [suddenly i remembered Mr Tan TH telling us during band prac when i was still at hihs that brass players, predominantly trombonists, are good kissers, HAR HAR HAR].
tmr i'm thinking if i wanna go for hihs band, i got my crazy cough again. i won't play if i go, anyway i got no scores cos my printer is down.
o yay. yeah. i wanna say this. praise God. i can't believe all the things He did to me, for me and in me. so many things. i really couldn't have done it without Him.
i'm sleepy. i shall go sleep [remembered, i have to tell ruth to stop dreaming about me and that guy, horrible girl she, mad mad mad]. i hope ruth and rachel will take initiative to learn and study hard, i think they can both do well if they want to. and i pray leon and rachel and whomever is learning piano with me will be well-taught by the Holy Spirit, and that the Holy Spirit will be my guide as to how i am to teach and impart my knowledge to them in the most precise and clear manner.
just picked mei from side gate since she had no key. she walked like a zombie. for a few moments, i was thinking if it's me, i'd probably have to walk alone, no one to lean on except God, no one who cares if i reach home with peace-at-heart except God. but well, i'm the da-jie, i have to be strong.
haix.
and one more thing: thank God for music in my life. =] i just LURVE it.
Au Revoir!!!
Saturday, May 17, 2008
my sad life
i'm so sad. so pls don't read this post. it's for me to rant only.
my life. my sad life. freaking angry at why people have to direct me here and there.
i wanted music. since primary school. till secondary school. till jc. when did i stop?
music is not my passion. it's my TALENT. i love performing or rather, showing off. performance and directing is my passion. together, music is my life. why is that so difficult to understand. i tell people, i wanna be a singer, i wanna be a composer of "songs that make the whole world sing", i wanna be a renowned music teacher, i want to produce splendid musicals and plays, i want to show the world what music can do to heal physical hurt and heal our souls, i want to be a dancer, i want to perform in theatre shows, comedies and recitals, i want to play my trombone in concerts and march in a marching band like i own the world's attention. why didn't anybody understand that THOSE weren't JOKES. i was serious.
the further i walk away from music, my desired destination, the more tired i become, and the more i don't want to turn back. i don't have the energy anymore.
i practice my piano like anything in the world. i skip lunch for it, i play till my skin peel and i just layer on the plaster even though after doing so i can barely feel the ivory keys beneath my fingers, i play with my heart and soul and sometimes lose them as a result, i play my piano for hours and i can keep going till school chases me out, i practice though i have chronic cough so that if i ever am sick during an exam i can deliver at least a merit standard performance to the examiner, i go for practice in tank top and shorts without jacket though i'm afraid of cold and may get panic attack just so that i can get myself used to the biting cold through thie grueling process, i do push-ups so that i have strength to bang my wrist on the keys because my short fingers themselves don't have the length to execute appropriate swing and momentum so that my fortissimo notes are loud enough, i wear metal rings on my fourth finger to force open the gap between it and my last and third finger so i can play better, for certain songs i play till my finger get bruises and nails get chipped off, i memorise songs easily and get called mad by people, i get laughed at or taken as having fits when i say i'm stressed about piano, i get discrimination when i practice more than others during band, i get insulted for being known to have high expectations for music quality, i get reprimanded by family members and relatives for being to strict with myself and torturing myself for nothing, i can sing in tune and people say after hearing me sing at k box nobody else would dare sing for fear of making a fool of themselves relative to my singing, i tell people with potential that they do and i look like a fool, i practice hard despite no time for grade 6 and 7 during my A levels year and got chided for getting a Merit for both, i tell people i'm Cristofori's Nominated Top Student of the Year 2007 as well as their Outstanding Student and i get called insane when i say it gives me additional and redundant stress.
does anybody understand? too many details? there are more. in my life, i get stressed for the smallest of things, it seems. i cry when i failed my 2.4 km run in sec 4, people call me mad and attention-seeker. nobody knows i get scolded at home for failing. i cry when i fail subjects by a few marks, they call me an idiot for crying - to them, it's not as if i failed by the tens, but to me, failing is bad enough. i am well-mannered and respectful to teachers, people say i suck-up to HOD and don't even think that i am RAISED that way.
i have a strict home, yes. when friends come over, my parents are friendly and open-minded, yes, but that doesn't give ME the reason to be wild like i would like to be.
look at what i looked like when i was young. recall how i was when i was young. i was amused by anything. i laughed at any joke. i smiled at everybody. i hugged my uncles and anties and grandparents, i say sweet things to my parents when they take me out. i feel like i'm on the top of the world when i receive a lollipop. on my birthday, it's the cards and the people being there that makes the best present.
look at me now. i get stressed so easily, or rather, i think i'm stressed. nobody in this world knows what i'm going through. my ex told me to be more positive, when i told him how stressed i was in piano.
wait. only one person knows. God knows. Jesus knows what i'm saying and i'm sure he understands. He walked every road with me, whether the way He wanted me to walk, or when i had to follow my parents' planned-route for life.
now i think, maybe, since so many people tell me to be realistic and that music cannot be my career and i should not pursue it, maybe it's what God is trying to say?
but if it is, why is it so hard for me to let go. it's more difficult to let go than a relationship. well, maybe because it means more, but does it really?
i'm not emo-ing. if i am, i would have gotten over this same problem years ago. i'm tired of my life walking the road people want me to walk, but i'm not being let to walk it independently. they grasp tight on my hands, point carefully where not to step onto.
for goodness sake, falling down will not take my life. or will it? but surely falling down at all will do me good. why do people around me care for me SOOOOOO much until letting-go just goes out of their dictionary? just letting me practice for 5 hours at piano and i get calls asking if i'm fine, if i'm sick, if i'm not well, if i'm okay... i'm sorry, yes, i do find it irritating. what to do? how to hide the fact that practice is important to me?
haix. wtf. i shall keep quiet. to my friends who read this and don't know wth i'm talking about, i'm sorry, but there are things like these that i know will be bothersome for you all to know about. however much a best friend, close friend, childhood friend, or even my sister or parents, nobody knows about this other than the friend i know in Jesus.
i shall go. i'm lost. i'm lost. my Shephard, i know u won't forsake me. thank You. =]
yay, thank God i'm smiling again.
my life. my sad life. freaking angry at why people have to direct me here and there.
i wanted music. since primary school. till secondary school. till jc. when did i stop?
music is not my passion. it's my TALENT. i love performing or rather, showing off. performance and directing is my passion. together, music is my life. why is that so difficult to understand. i tell people, i wanna be a singer, i wanna be a composer of "songs that make the whole world sing", i wanna be a renowned music teacher, i want to produce splendid musicals and plays, i want to show the world what music can do to heal physical hurt and heal our souls, i want to be a dancer, i want to perform in theatre shows, comedies and recitals, i want to play my trombone in concerts and march in a marching band like i own the world's attention. why didn't anybody understand that THOSE weren't JOKES. i was serious.
the further i walk away from music, my desired destination, the more tired i become, and the more i don't want to turn back. i don't have the energy anymore.
i practice my piano like anything in the world. i skip lunch for it, i play till my skin peel and i just layer on the plaster even though after doing so i can barely feel the ivory keys beneath my fingers, i play with my heart and soul and sometimes lose them as a result, i play my piano for hours and i can keep going till school chases me out, i practice though i have chronic cough so that if i ever am sick during an exam i can deliver at least a merit standard performance to the examiner, i go for practice in tank top and shorts without jacket though i'm afraid of cold and may get panic attack just so that i can get myself used to the biting cold through thie grueling process, i do push-ups so that i have strength to bang my wrist on the keys because my short fingers themselves don't have the length to execute appropriate swing and momentum so that my fortissimo notes are loud enough, i wear metal rings on my fourth finger to force open the gap between it and my last and third finger so i can play better, for certain songs i play till my finger get bruises and nails get chipped off, i memorise songs easily and get called mad by people, i get laughed at or taken as having fits when i say i'm stressed about piano, i get discrimination when i practice more than others during band, i get insulted for being known to have high expectations for music quality, i get reprimanded by family members and relatives for being to strict with myself and torturing myself for nothing, i can sing in tune and people say after hearing me sing at k box nobody else would dare sing for fear of making a fool of themselves relative to my singing, i tell people with potential that they do and i look like a fool, i practice hard despite no time for grade 6 and 7 during my A levels year and got chided for getting a Merit for both, i tell people i'm Cristofori's Nominated Top Student of the Year 2007 as well as their Outstanding Student and i get called insane when i say it gives me additional and redundant stress.
does anybody understand? too many details? there are more. in my life, i get stressed for the smallest of things, it seems. i cry when i failed my 2.4 km run in sec 4, people call me mad and attention-seeker. nobody knows i get scolded at home for failing. i cry when i fail subjects by a few marks, they call me an idiot for crying - to them, it's not as if i failed by the tens, but to me, failing is bad enough. i am well-mannered and respectful to teachers, people say i suck-up to HOD and don't even think that i am RAISED that way.
i have a strict home, yes. when friends come over, my parents are friendly and open-minded, yes, but that doesn't give ME the reason to be wild like i would like to be.
look at what i looked like when i was young. recall how i was when i was young. i was amused by anything. i laughed at any joke. i smiled at everybody. i hugged my uncles and anties and grandparents, i say sweet things to my parents when they take me out. i feel like i'm on the top of the world when i receive a lollipop. on my birthday, it's the cards and the people being there that makes the best present.
look at me now. i get stressed so easily, or rather, i think i'm stressed. nobody in this world knows what i'm going through. my ex told me to be more positive, when i told him how stressed i was in piano.
wait. only one person knows. God knows. Jesus knows what i'm saying and i'm sure he understands. He walked every road with me, whether the way He wanted me to walk, or when i had to follow my parents' planned-route for life.
now i think, maybe, since so many people tell me to be realistic and that music cannot be my career and i should not pursue it, maybe it's what God is trying to say?
but if it is, why is it so hard for me to let go. it's more difficult to let go than a relationship. well, maybe because it means more, but does it really?
i'm not emo-ing. if i am, i would have gotten over this same problem years ago. i'm tired of my life walking the road people want me to walk, but i'm not being let to walk it independently. they grasp tight on my hands, point carefully where not to step onto.
for goodness sake, falling down will not take my life. or will it? but surely falling down at all will do me good. why do people around me care for me SOOOOOO much until letting-go just goes out of their dictionary? just letting me practice for 5 hours at piano and i get calls asking if i'm fine, if i'm sick, if i'm not well, if i'm okay... i'm sorry, yes, i do find it irritating. what to do? how to hide the fact that practice is important to me?
haix. wtf. i shall keep quiet. to my friends who read this and don't know wth i'm talking about, i'm sorry, but there are things like these that i know will be bothersome for you all to know about. however much a best friend, close friend, childhood friend, or even my sister or parents, nobody knows about this other than the friend i know in Jesus.
i shall go. i'm lost. i'm lost. my Shephard, i know u won't forsake me. thank You. =]
yay, thank God i'm smiling again.
Friday, May 16, 2008
fast update
hello world.
okok. i don't have alot of time.
anyway.
yestereday's musical with marcus' family, it's damn funny lar. hahah. just that he didn't let me pay the $59.90. hm. yeah. he still kept bullying his mum. i left, didn't join them for supper, cos (1) i felt abit sick, reached about 10 + i started my coughs already (2) felt weird, abit lar (3) i was worried bout sis at home being stressed...
i'll update more lar. i got piano at 330.
i gotta do my laundry stuff now.
o ya, ps. i got NIE letter. but for primary school teaching. hm. maybe music? dunno.
yeah. i gtg. byby. WAH har har har. =]
okok. i don't have alot of time.
anyway.
yestereday's musical with marcus' family, it's damn funny lar. hahah. just that he didn't let me pay the $59.90. hm. yeah. he still kept bullying his mum. i left, didn't join them for supper, cos (1) i felt abit sick, reached about 10 + i started my coughs already (2) felt weird, abit lar (3) i was worried bout sis at home being stressed...
i'll update more lar. i got piano at 330.
i gotta do my laundry stuff now.
o ya, ps. i got NIE letter. but for primary school teaching. hm. maybe music? dunno.
yeah. i gtg. byby. WAH har har har. =]
Thursday, May 15, 2008
thursday's wake up call
hello world... =]
i had my dear alarm clock wake me up at 9+ but unwillingly [or willingly, maybe, i dunno,maybe i was drunk in my dreams, den needed to sleep more, HAR HAR HAR] slept until 1130 [HUAR HUAR HUAR, i'm so pro] and den rolled in bed [my daily ritual, to appreciate my Tiggers and Lumpys who sleep with me, bonding time, har har har] den got out of bed [finally] at 12. =]
i already got Mei's [my sister is called Mei, as in, i call her that] present already man. i shan't type it here, cos she may read it [WA HAR HAR HAR].
*clears throat, clears nose and windpipe into tissue, give sian face*... [-.-] hmmm...
today i'm gonna do these things:
i had my dear alarm clock wake me up at 9+ but unwillingly [or willingly, maybe, i dunno,maybe i was drunk in my dreams, den needed to sleep more, HAR HAR HAR] slept until 1130 [HUAR HUAR HUAR, i'm so pro] and den rolled in bed [my daily ritual, to appreciate my Tiggers and Lumpys who sleep with me, bonding time, har har har] den got out of bed [finally] at 12. =]
i already got Mei's [my sister is called Mei, as in, i call her that] present already man. i shan't type it here, cos she may read it [WA HAR HAR HAR].
*clears throat, clears nose and windpipe into tissue, give sian face*... [-.-] hmmm...
today i'm gonna do these things:
- eat lunch with gramma [she tapao for me]
- change and go for piano practice [maybe will have make up lesson, not sure]
- hurry for dinner
- train down to meet marcus at 720 @ bugis
hmmm. was contemplating if i should have told sihui and agnes and khai my buddy and other friends of mine about my plans tonight, den maybe i would have gotten more opinions if i should really go or not. i had a bit of trouble last night, cos of this awkward feeling of going out with him, so randomly. NOT because [like what my church friend suggested] i still like him. no, i don't think i have anymore feelings for him; they should have been gone by now [or rather, i think so]. but it's just so annoying to have thig bugging feeling i should have spent my time else where. think about it. the opportunity cost of going for that musical are either of these: (1) quiet-time for God, study bible, finish up Lessons on Assurance (2) practice piano, study aural theory (3)watch tv, and NOT miss de 10-11 pm chinese show [=( wa shit lar, how can i miss it, haix]...
well, done means done. i told him i'd go. anyway his family knows about the break up, so at least i feel better.
har har, Alex [Kairos cell group leader, my cell leader] msged me in the morning at 1130 sia. haha, lucky i'm awake. i'm going for cell tmr [friday], and i'm asked to invite my sis along. yay. tonight i have to revise last sunday's sermon. =]
i have to go down later to start daddy's car engine, ram for awhile, den maybe i go open letter-box, hope for nus or ntu letters, den come up have lunch.
been quite lazy to do quiet-time recently. even if i did [i have been doing QT about 15 minutes daily], it's so short a time, i feel that i should have spent more time. hm, but at least i did my daily prayers.
i gotta do laundry too, sian. [-.-]
yay! my God is MIGHTY TO SAVE!!! =] i'm mad. i shall go do stuff now... [ps, my buddy msg me, wow i's so glad he msg me, yay =) haha]
gtg. byby. Au Revoir.
Wednesday, May 14, 2008
full of virus
yoooooooo hooooooo... hello world...
i'm sick. author is sick. shit.
dustbin is full of my flu-mucus-y tissues... and i'm full of virus...
alicia told me don't go with marcus for musical at first, den said i can go but don't sit with him. hmmm. [-.-] whatever... we're just friends...
'm eating lunch with gramma now. har har. so cool. raining... i tell u, my house living room's view is fantastic man... =] i LOVE my house...
i gtg liao. going piano. haix...
anybody wanna volunteer for salvation army or anything, lemme know. =]
Au Revoir.
i'm sick. author is sick. shit.
dustbin is full of my flu-mucus-y tissues... and i'm full of virus...
alicia told me don't go with marcus for musical at first, den said i can go but don't sit with him. hmmm. [-.-] whatever... we're just friends...
'm eating lunch with gramma now. har har. so cool. raining... i tell u, my house living room's view is fantastic man... =] i LOVE my house...
i gtg liao. going piano. haix...
anybody wanna volunteer for salvation army or anything, lemme know. =]
Au Revoir.
Monday, May 12, 2008
i wait to write songs
i like this:
"i write the songs that make the whole world sing,
i write the songs that's made of special things,
i write the songs that make the young girls cry,
i write the songs, i write the songs."
so sweet right... i'm waiting for opportunity and inspiration man... i can compose, but i can't write lyrics for nuts.
and i LOVE singing. =] Bei thanks for sending me the song Better In Time, it so applied to me THEN, but i love it nonetheless =]
ruth is so sweet, she msg me to ask if i was okay and how's my family, thanks girl!!! =]
naughty rachel isn't in school. hahaha.
k. i haven't heat up the pizza. i'm so lazy.
Au Revoir.
"i write the songs that make the whole world sing,
i write the songs that's made of special things,
i write the songs that make the young girls cry,
i write the songs, i write the songs."
so sweet right... i'm waiting for opportunity and inspiration man... i can compose, but i can't write lyrics for nuts.
and i LOVE singing. =] Bei thanks for sending me the song Better In Time, it so applied to me THEN, but i love it nonetheless =]
ruth is so sweet, she msg me to ask if i was okay and how's my family, thanks girl!!! =]
naughty rachel isn't in school. hahaha.
k. i haven't heat up the pizza. i'm so lazy.
Au Revoir.
finally the time to go online
yo yo world. hello!!! huggies world. har har...
i am FINALLY online [shit. is it finaLLY or finaLy? which spelling? omg, dumb cow brain of mine -.- ]. talking to Reetha my fellow moo-moo online. she skipped class and is in the library, she says the class was "no point". haha... den we talked about the part of the bible where John had to interpret the Pharaoh's dreams, and that she and i are the cows inside [-.- yeah, spare me the reetha's moments man], and now she's confessing to climbing over the fence when she's at SRJC [omg lar, that woman, she's got mad cow disease already].
o well... updates updates...
THURSDAY: lunch with bei: [i went early to see XieLi first, KY wasn't working when i went there, o well] we went compasspoint for lunch, [met sarah and wanling there, so we shared table] ate at mos [bei shared about her shuai-J2 with wanling, since wanling's from SR and in that guy's batch, and got email contacts etc so 'll see if wanling knows the fella when bei scans the photo to show the guy's shuai face. but i don't think he's THAT shuai lar, cos i can't even rmb his face, dots, bei don't kill me ah. hahaha]... movie with bei at vivo. we watched Over My Dead Body [super nice, i liked it, very cute lar] and Superhero [bei liked this one more, but it's like so much sexually-suggestive scenes, i think it's abit too crude lar, the jokes were SO SO SO lame, they can even be funny, and that stupid bei says i lag when i laugh, wth. hahaha]... went home after eating at Mac at hougang mall.
FRIDAY: sick: had to cancel piano lesson [de-de-de-DE, de-de-de-DEH; hahaha, mozart's symphony no. 40 in G minor]. i had the flu and the cough and the phlegm. evening we went to Pepper Lunch for dinner, pre-Mother's-Day celebration for my mum, since she's flying to Europe with dad on saturday [we got the discount, cos mei used to work there].
SATURDAY: mei had tuition, so we went to kovan to eat beef noodles [the lousy one, and it was so super peppery, i had to wash the noodles in soup just so i could even eat it] den me and parents went NTUC to pick up some stuff, den head home. i took medicine, drowsy, fell asleep [slept 1 hour plus], mum woke me up awhile later asked me if i wanted food, i agreed with bachang [i know, bachang again, but it's nice ma,i just don't understand what's so amazing about me liking to eat things over and over again, never hear of craving before meh, wth] den i zoned off again while mum went to pick my sis up. i woke up [2 hours later, hahaha i'm such a pig] and had my bachang. den we went dinner with gramma and all [mother's side family] at Mui-Chun [Plum Village Restaurant, at upper thomson road around there lar, wherever it is] den went home with popo [my gramma] too, mum and dad with their farewell ritual of hugs and etc, den they left for airport. i did the laundry [don't gimme the surprised look man, wa lao], machine washed [i shall remember the next time that the 2nd rinse is 23 minutes before i pour the softener -.-] the clothes, hung them up [boy i feel like a mum already], took my medicine, tuck my sis into bed with our brother Tigger [she slept in same room with gramma], den i went to bed, did my prayers, den fell asleep [and hoped all night in my dreams that i won't get blocked nose and have to breathe through my mouth and get a dried up throat in the morning].
SUNDAY: church with sis: went to St. Paul's on sunday, 11.30 youth service ma. sis met new people, etc. had praise and worship [lucky my sis not so shy, she jumps around and worships like us too], sermon [told them i wasn't going for GDOP cos i'm sick], den last song, den end of service, mei and xuexian and i went heartland mall 2nd floor that whatever jap place to eat [ps mei broke her sandals, so she got a new pair]. went back home [reached home about 3], popo's back already. i did my stuff, den i decided to go GDOP [cos i wanted to pray for the people in Myanmar] and i msged ah yee. so decided go early dinner at Mac @ hougang mall, take shuttle out. popo sat beside me in the shuttle bus, ah yee called me, said they're joining us, got bad news for popo, her sis in malaysia had passed away that morning, so ah yee and yee jiong's gonna be with my popo, and i was to decide if i wanna go for GDOP still. i was quite shocked, cos kampo [pronounced kam-por, my gramma's sis] had watched me grow up too, and i saw her at least once a year when she visits singapore with my late uncle cheong [haix, so sad lar, i was like gonna cry on the bus, and i had to fake it and look out the window, and pretend that it's the flu that make me have tears in my eyes]. and then i decided to go for GDOP anyway, for i had felt that, while yes i have lost a relative and should be mourning, the thousands and millions of people in Burma [myanmar, in case u don't know] will need my prayer tonight, so there. i ate dinner, ah yee and yee jiong came, den i left for church [reached church about 5.50pm] den waited for ruth outside sanctuary, i didn't wanna go to parish hall yet, i was afraid i 'd just cry out thinking about kampo and the sweet things she used to say about me. so i sat there alone. i tried to distract my thoughts by reading the Time magazine i brought with me, i read about Burma and the cyclone Nargis, gosh, i saw the pictures [wa lao eh i wanna cry sia]. at that moment, all the more i was convinced that i had to go for GDOP. so yeah, ruth came with rachel, i told them about kampo, and i asked for a hug, got the hug [i felt better after that], we went towards parish hall to look for the other youths since the bus was here already. den went up the bus [mini-bus, to be exact, and we squeezed up, not went up], i sat with ruth and rachel [3 of us in 2 seats, lucky we're not fat], and the bus went off. played bible games on the bus, i realised how fun it is to know the bible [so what Vicar said that day during sermon is right, Christian life is interesting] etc. den we reached indoor stadium, got the green tickets, went in, quite nice place [esp if it's band concert, omg so cool sia] it is. during GDOP, Marcus msged me, asked if i was free to go for musical with his family, and i was like -.- cos it's like after such a long silence, he randomly ask me to go for a musical. i ignored earlier when i didn't know who msged me, den he msged again saying reply please. i ignored again after seeing the msg, den i concentrated on praying, for the government of Singapore, for Asia, for the different nations, my group prayed for Krgystan [we took turns to say prayers, rachel spoke in tongues, hm but sounds like the same thing alot of people say, whatever], den split the whole population in the stadium to pray for different issues, my group was in the arena at the front, so we prayed for Contemporary Issues. it was quite late by the time we ended. i looked at my phone, marcus gave me a missed call, i asked ruth what to do, to say yes or not, i think it's quite rhetorical, cos in the end, i asked my heart and my heart asked God [felt abit weird lar, cos like break already, and i even asked marcus if he asked the correct person], and soon i got the answer, and i replied marcus saying i'd go. Sharleen was like asking and asking, issit my ex, what happened, etc. whatever. den went up bus, ruth and rachel and sharleen was SOOOOOOOO NOISY, i think the deaf can hear them too [HAR HAR HAR, i'm so bad sia]. FINALY reached church at 10+. i said goodbyes, told rachel to pls go to school tmr [that's today, monday] den me and ruth ran to the bus stop [i passed her some loose change with the 5 cents so she can take bus], 136 came and i went up with some of the church adults. i sat alone, thinking thinking; before ending the conversation with Marcus, i had asked him to pray for me, cos i needed to go home to handle a possible crisis [dunno how gramma was after hearing the news], and i prayed. den i wanted to cry and i asked for the Holy Spirit to come and fill me, to give me guidance. den i felt a peaceful calm in my heart. i alighted, walked home [actually i sorta flew, in light steps, like running but walking or both, sibei don't laugh, i know, i'm a bird], towards side gate, i felt abit dizzy [think probably cos of my wheezing nose], i thought about my shuai-ge-in-lime-green-trunks, den suddenly i thought about Marucs too, den i slapped myself awake, continued walking home, the compound was so dark sia. nobody at poolside, no security guard either. reached home, door wasn't locked [i panicked for a brief second, thought there's something bad that already happened], went in, popo was okay. ah yee and yee jiong still there. i hugged popo, den i shared about GDOP with ah yee and yee jiong and mei. den ah yee and yee jiong and gramma left, cos next day [that's today] they're leaving for malaysia. den i bathed [did my usual night routine, while emo-ing in the toilet cos i sorta miss my band days, about what Rev. Edmund Chan from CEFC shared during GDOP], mei went to sleep, i made sure things were proper [doors locked, curtains closed, etc], den i went to pray at my bedside [actually, i was standing on my ladder =) hahah], i reflected alot, cried abit, thought alot about my life, and i asked God for renewed faith in Him, and i clasped my hand tight [ps. this speaker at GDOP shared that a guy from dunno which country said that when u clasp your hands or stretch your arms with an open heart or kneel in prayer, satan and the evil spirits will flee from you, for it is an outward prophetic action to proclaim that God is victorious and He has won and we shall always be protected by the Holy Spirit] and i prayed for Burma again. den i went into bed, i did my Quiet-Time, i offered my life to Jesus once more, [ps. marcus msged me saying "hope you are better. i'm going to sleep" and i felt abit weird like why msg me this, but i replied saying "'m better. thanks. goodnight"], i msged mum to update her things, replied sihui's msg, said one last prayer for my piano, den i slept with SUCH a peaceful heart. felt great. no, awesome.
TODAY: i'm gonna practice piano for awhile. i'm contemplating if i should go HIMB today or on Saturday instead. dinner tonight will be at compasspoint, with yee jiong and mei.
i just had corn-flakes. o man. i'm gonna eat left over pizza.
o ya, that bei told me she couldn't let me devour her cookies cos they were SUPPOSEDLY so wonderful that they've been gobbled up by her family. hahaha. eh, come on lar, what are frens for, i told bei make some more for me. HAR HAR HAR...
WA HAR HAR HAR... evil laugh, sounds more of funny den evil. hahaha.
i've decided, i wanna be myself. MYSELF. as in me, but not Allison kinda me, but Allison kinda ME, u get it?
=] yay =]
i'm going to read the bible now. =] no. i shall go micro-wave the pizza first, let's hope the microwave oven doesn't explode on me [ps gramma told me that i can't microwave eggs, well, i learned something new last night. hahaha]...
BYE BYE...
Au Revoir!!! =) [ps. wow, i LOVE my life man]...
i am FINALLY online [shit. is it finaLLY or finaLy? which spelling? omg, dumb cow brain of mine -.- ]. talking to Reetha my fellow moo-moo online. she skipped class and is in the library, she says the class was "no point". haha... den we talked about the part of the bible where John had to interpret the Pharaoh's dreams, and that she and i are the cows inside [-.- yeah, spare me the reetha's moments man], and now she's confessing to climbing over the fence when she's at SRJC [omg lar, that woman, she's got mad cow disease already].
o well... updates updates...
THURSDAY: lunch with bei: [i went early to see XieLi first, KY wasn't working when i went there, o well] we went compasspoint for lunch, [met sarah and wanling there, so we shared table] ate at mos [bei shared about her shuai-J2 with wanling, since wanling's from SR and in that guy's batch, and got email contacts etc so 'll see if wanling knows the fella when bei scans the photo to show the guy's shuai face. but i don't think he's THAT shuai lar, cos i can't even rmb his face, dots, bei don't kill me ah. hahaha]... movie with bei at vivo. we watched Over My Dead Body [super nice, i liked it, very cute lar] and Superhero [bei liked this one more, but it's like so much sexually-suggestive scenes, i think it's abit too crude lar, the jokes were SO SO SO lame, they can even be funny, and that stupid bei says i lag when i laugh, wth. hahaha]... went home after eating at Mac at hougang mall.
FRIDAY: sick: had to cancel piano lesson [de-de-de-DE, de-de-de-DEH; hahaha, mozart's symphony no. 40 in G minor]. i had the flu and the cough and the phlegm. evening we went to Pepper Lunch for dinner, pre-Mother's-Day celebration for my mum, since she's flying to Europe with dad on saturday [we got the discount, cos mei used to work there].
SATURDAY: mei had tuition, so we went to kovan to eat beef noodles [the lousy one, and it was so super peppery, i had to wash the noodles in soup just so i could even eat it] den me and parents went NTUC to pick up some stuff, den head home. i took medicine, drowsy, fell asleep [slept 1 hour plus], mum woke me up awhile later asked me if i wanted food, i agreed with bachang [i know, bachang again, but it's nice ma,i just don't understand what's so amazing about me liking to eat things over and over again, never hear of craving before meh, wth] den i zoned off again while mum went to pick my sis up. i woke up [2 hours later, hahaha i'm such a pig] and had my bachang. den we went dinner with gramma and all [mother's side family] at Mui-Chun [Plum Village Restaurant, at upper thomson road around there lar, wherever it is] den went home with popo [my gramma] too, mum and dad with their farewell ritual of hugs and etc, den they left for airport. i did the laundry [don't gimme the surprised look man, wa lao], machine washed [i shall remember the next time that the 2nd rinse is 23 minutes before i pour the softener -.-] the clothes, hung them up [boy i feel like a mum already], took my medicine, tuck my sis into bed with our brother Tigger [she slept in same room with gramma], den i went to bed, did my prayers, den fell asleep [and hoped all night in my dreams that i won't get blocked nose and have to breathe through my mouth and get a dried up throat in the morning].
SUNDAY: church with sis: went to St. Paul's on sunday, 11.30 youth service ma. sis met new people, etc. had praise and worship [lucky my sis not so shy, she jumps around and worships like us too], sermon [told them i wasn't going for GDOP cos i'm sick], den last song, den end of service, mei and xuexian and i went heartland mall 2nd floor that whatever jap place to eat [ps mei broke her sandals, so she got a new pair]. went back home [reached home about 3], popo's back already. i did my stuff, den i decided to go GDOP [cos i wanted to pray for the people in Myanmar] and i msged ah yee. so decided go early dinner at Mac @ hougang mall, take shuttle out. popo sat beside me in the shuttle bus, ah yee called me, said they're joining us, got bad news for popo, her sis in malaysia had passed away that morning, so ah yee and yee jiong's gonna be with my popo, and i was to decide if i wanna go for GDOP still. i was quite shocked, cos kampo [pronounced kam-por, my gramma's sis] had watched me grow up too, and i saw her at least once a year when she visits singapore with my late uncle cheong [haix, so sad lar, i was like gonna cry on the bus, and i had to fake it and look out the window, and pretend that it's the flu that make me have tears in my eyes]. and then i decided to go for GDOP anyway, for i had felt that, while yes i have lost a relative and should be mourning, the thousands and millions of people in Burma [myanmar, in case u don't know] will need my prayer tonight, so there. i ate dinner, ah yee and yee jiong came, den i left for church [reached church about 5.50pm] den waited for ruth outside sanctuary, i didn't wanna go to parish hall yet, i was afraid i 'd just cry out thinking about kampo and the sweet things she used to say about me. so i sat there alone. i tried to distract my thoughts by reading the Time magazine i brought with me, i read about Burma and the cyclone Nargis, gosh, i saw the pictures [wa lao eh i wanna cry sia]. at that moment, all the more i was convinced that i had to go for GDOP. so yeah, ruth came with rachel, i told them about kampo, and i asked for a hug, got the hug [i felt better after that], we went towards parish hall to look for the other youths since the bus was here already. den went up the bus [mini-bus, to be exact, and we squeezed up, not went up], i sat with ruth and rachel [3 of us in 2 seats, lucky we're not fat], and the bus went off. played bible games on the bus, i realised how fun it is to know the bible [so what Vicar said that day during sermon is right, Christian life is interesting] etc. den we reached indoor stadium, got the green tickets, went in, quite nice place [esp if it's band concert, omg so cool sia] it is. during GDOP, Marcus msged me, asked if i was free to go for musical with his family, and i was like -.- cos it's like after such a long silence, he randomly ask me to go for a musical. i ignored earlier when i didn't know who msged me, den he msged again saying reply please. i ignored again after seeing the msg, den i concentrated on praying, for the government of Singapore, for Asia, for the different nations, my group prayed for Krgystan [we took turns to say prayers, rachel spoke in tongues, hm but sounds like the same thing alot of people say, whatever], den split the whole population in the stadium to pray for different issues, my group was in the arena at the front, so we prayed for Contemporary Issues. it was quite late by the time we ended. i looked at my phone, marcus gave me a missed call, i asked ruth what to do, to say yes or not, i think it's quite rhetorical, cos in the end, i asked my heart and my heart asked God [felt abit weird lar, cos like break already, and i even asked marcus if he asked the correct person], and soon i got the answer, and i replied marcus saying i'd go. Sharleen was like asking and asking, issit my ex, what happened, etc. whatever. den went up bus, ruth and rachel and sharleen was SOOOOOOOO NOISY, i think the deaf can hear them too [HAR HAR HAR, i'm so bad sia]. FINALY reached church at 10+. i said goodbyes, told rachel to pls go to school tmr [that's today, monday] den me and ruth ran to the bus stop [i passed her some loose change with the 5 cents so she can take bus], 136 came and i went up with some of the church adults. i sat alone, thinking thinking; before ending the conversation with Marcus, i had asked him to pray for me, cos i needed to go home to handle a possible crisis [dunno how gramma was after hearing the news], and i prayed. den i wanted to cry and i asked for the Holy Spirit to come and fill me, to give me guidance. den i felt a peaceful calm in my heart. i alighted, walked home [actually i sorta flew, in light steps, like running but walking or both, sibei don't laugh, i know, i'm a bird], towards side gate, i felt abit dizzy [think probably cos of my wheezing nose], i thought about my shuai-ge-in-lime-green-trunks, den suddenly i thought about Marucs too, den i slapped myself awake, continued walking home, the compound was so dark sia. nobody at poolside, no security guard either. reached home, door wasn't locked [i panicked for a brief second, thought there's something bad that already happened], went in, popo was okay. ah yee and yee jiong still there. i hugged popo, den i shared about GDOP with ah yee and yee jiong and mei. den ah yee and yee jiong and gramma left, cos next day [that's today] they're leaving for malaysia. den i bathed [did my usual night routine, while emo-ing in the toilet cos i sorta miss my band days, about what Rev. Edmund Chan from CEFC shared during GDOP], mei went to sleep, i made sure things were proper [doors locked, curtains closed, etc], den i went to pray at my bedside [actually, i was standing on my ladder =) hahah], i reflected alot, cried abit, thought alot about my life, and i asked God for renewed faith in Him, and i clasped my hand tight [ps. this speaker at GDOP shared that a guy from dunno which country said that when u clasp your hands or stretch your arms with an open heart or kneel in prayer, satan and the evil spirits will flee from you, for it is an outward prophetic action to proclaim that God is victorious and He has won and we shall always be protected by the Holy Spirit] and i prayed for Burma again. den i went into bed, i did my Quiet-Time, i offered my life to Jesus once more, [ps. marcus msged me saying "hope you are better. i'm going to sleep" and i felt abit weird like why msg me this, but i replied saying "'m better. thanks. goodnight"], i msged mum to update her things, replied sihui's msg, said one last prayer for my piano, den i slept with SUCH a peaceful heart. felt great. no, awesome.
TODAY: i'm gonna practice piano for awhile. i'm contemplating if i should go HIMB today or on Saturday instead. dinner tonight will be at compasspoint, with yee jiong and mei.
i just had corn-flakes. o man. i'm gonna eat left over pizza.
o ya, that bei told me she couldn't let me devour her cookies cos they were SUPPOSEDLY so wonderful that they've been gobbled up by her family. hahaha. eh, come on lar, what are frens for, i told bei make some more for me. HAR HAR HAR...
WA HAR HAR HAR... evil laugh, sounds more of funny den evil. hahaha.
i've decided, i wanna be myself. MYSELF. as in me, but not Allison kinda me, but Allison kinda ME, u get it?
=] yay =]
i'm going to read the bible now. =] no. i shall go micro-wave the pizza first, let's hope the microwave oven doesn't explode on me [ps gramma told me that i can't microwave eggs, well, i learned something new last night. hahaha]...
BYE BYE...
Au Revoir!!! =) [ps. wow, i LOVE my life man]...
Tuesday, May 6, 2008
blardy stress or just gone mad
ARHHHHHH HARRRRRRRRRRRRR HARRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR...
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T_T...
ARRHHHHHH harrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr harrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr... o man o man... i don't care which uni. i only care WHAT course i do... and i have NO IDEA what i want for my future.
what's my interest? music. what else? how can i say i'm interested in retail, my parents will kill me sia... what else? sales? [sales, i can work as Managing Director of Market] i said marketing, but i dunno how to survive in it.
i only know how to study. shit lar. education in singapore only taught me to study. shit. thanks man.
stress... =/ 'm talking to mali [aka chan mali chan, aka may yee]... parents are our banks, so our future, since it depends on them, gotta be partially decided by them too... well... i shall wait till i am MY OWN BANK den i make my own sui-sui [anyhow, nice-nice] decision to study music.
tmr going out. watch superheroes. i hope i can cool down man. if not i think i'll drive bei nuts liao.
har har. talking to bei msn now. tmr we're going compasspoint in the afternoon [since today i didn't go, i wanna go tmr, see XieLi awhile, cos she called me today, said she's quite sad about sha-shou... den meet bei] for lunch, den go vivo, shop [i wanna buy my MNG top!!!], movie at 5 [ends about 6.20] den go home. =]yay...
bei said "(((:"... i was like, "HAR HAR u got hoo-zi" and i explained that it's actually "hu2-zi3"... funny lar... and she decided to faint, on msn, and so i told her stop fainting, since she sleeps for SUCH LOOOOOOOONG hours already and doesn't need to faint... har har...
i'm mad. haix. dunno i'm mad or crazy or siao or all of the above... shit... what's with me. lucky i haven't start talking to myself. if not, cham... har har...
ooookay... i decided i was momentarily mad. now i'm okay. i'm half dying, talking to bei. that animal is so horrifyingly lame...
byby. =]
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T_T...
ARRHHHHHH harrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr harrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr... o man o man... i don't care which uni. i only care WHAT course i do... and i have NO IDEA what i want for my future.
what's my interest? music. what else? how can i say i'm interested in retail, my parents will kill me sia... what else? sales? [sales, i can work as Managing Director of Market] i said marketing, but i dunno how to survive in it.
i only know how to study. shit lar. education in singapore only taught me to study. shit. thanks man.
stress... =/ 'm talking to mali [aka chan mali chan, aka may yee]... parents are our banks, so our future, since it depends on them, gotta be partially decided by them too... well... i shall wait till i am MY OWN BANK den i make my own sui-sui [anyhow, nice-nice] decision to study music.
tmr going out. watch superheroes. i hope i can cool down man. if not i think i'll drive bei nuts liao.
har har. talking to bei msn now. tmr we're going compasspoint in the afternoon [since today i didn't go, i wanna go tmr, see XieLi awhile, cos she called me today, said she's quite sad about sha-shou... den meet bei] for lunch, den go vivo, shop [i wanna buy my MNG top!!!], movie at 5 [ends about 6.20] den go home. =]yay...
bei said "(((:"... i was like, "HAR HAR u got hoo-zi" and i explained that it's actually "hu2-zi3"... funny lar... and she decided to faint, on msn, and so i told her stop fainting, since she sleeps for SUCH LOOOOOOOONG hours already and doesn't need to faint... har har...
i'm mad. haix. dunno i'm mad or crazy or siao or all of the above... shit... what's with me. lucky i haven't start talking to myself. if not, cham... har har...
ooookay... i decided i was momentarily mad. now i'm okay. i'm half dying, talking to bei. that animal is so horrifyingly lame...
byby. =]
uni-blues
went in to MDIS to look, as mum ordered...
o man. i'm so sad now. it's like SO many universities and i dunno if by taking anyone of them, other than the 3 local uni, i'd be less advantaged. its like, i dunno. being a university graduate and being a degree holder is totally different. it's difference is by that much of having campus life and pressures.
thinking about things, i dunno why i applied for business under sim-UOL when i hated accounting. i hate numbers already and u ask me do accounting. auditing sounds easy but it's so blardy difficult. mum told me to look into tourism and hospitality management. subsequently i also looked at marketing, which isn't so much of accounting.
=/ what's gonna happen to my music den. i still wanna learn violin/viola, i still wanna master my trombone, i still wanna do so many things... i'm so so sad...
arrg. i'm so sad. shit shit. shit. shit... =(
o man. i'm so sad now. it's like SO many universities and i dunno if by taking anyone of them, other than the 3 local uni, i'd be less advantaged. its like, i dunno. being a university graduate and being a degree holder is totally different. it's difference is by that much of having campus life and pressures.
thinking about things, i dunno why i applied for business under sim-UOL when i hated accounting. i hate numbers already and u ask me do accounting. auditing sounds easy but it's so blardy difficult. mum told me to look into tourism and hospitality management. subsequently i also looked at marketing, which isn't so much of accounting.
=/ what's gonna happen to my music den. i still wanna learn violin/viola, i still wanna master my trombone, i still wanna do so many things... i'm so so sad...
arrg. i'm so sad. shit shit. shit. shit... =(
tuesday dreams
hello world, good morning! =)
my cd player's on; i like this song:"Light of the world, You stepped down into darkness, opened my eyes, let me see. Beauty that made this heart adore You, hope of a life spent with you... Here i am to worship, here i am to bow down, here i am to say that You're my God. You're altogether lovely, altogether worthy, altogether wonderful to me... King of all days, oh so highly exalted, Glorious in heaven above, humbly You came to the earth You created. All for love's sake became poor. i'll never know how much it cost, to see my sin upon that cross." =) nice right... yay. =]
now: finished eating my ba-zhang.
later: probably go for lunch with dad if not get him to ta-pao back... den probably go to CMS to practice my piano. afterwhich i THINK i will pop by to compasspoint, to get my hp pouch. yay. den 'll go see if XieLi is working, and see if KY is still working =) [=/ after all the things sha-shou did between KY and me, it feels so weird to see him, even though i wanna be his friend, like talk and everything, it just feels weird, like, not the same as last time anymore... and i don't want him to think i'm interested in him, cos i just wanna be his friend, but it's so awkward, i can't be his friend in peace when sha-shou is around. shit lar. haix... o well, i leave this to God =) hehe].
bei was telling me to pls change my earrings, i don't see why lar. that woman [i mean, that animal]... hm, i dunno lar, i told her i want something simple but can be appropriate for all events [be it going out, dinner, go market, go piano, at home] and that i can sleep with, so probably have to be something with the ring type...
omg [baboon's best friend is attached!!! wahaha.]
i like this lyric: "Draw me close to You, never let me go. I lay it all down again, to hear You say that I'm Your friend... You're all i want, You're all i ever needed, You're all i want, help me know You are near..." yep. God, please draw me close to You... =]
o ya, and yesterday bei was telling me that she's nocturnal, so she's a bat, and so batman's her bf. HAR HAR HAR... omg, laugh man... hahaha...
last night: running with bei and sihui: we ran in the evening [sihui came at 8, bei reached at about 8.20]. surprisingly bei didn't bring her hp with her. haha. den we went to run, bei was like DANCING lar, not running... idiot. and sihui was like DYING... hahaha... i was WALKING beside them... HAR HAR HAR... i was suaning them all the way, and they kept saying they're thirsty and i kept telling them to jump into the river beside and just drink, no need to pay. hahaha. we finished 2.6 km [WA... 2.6 lei... say "WOW!!!" hahaha]... hahaha. den went up to my place, drink water, me and bei ate ice-cream, hahaha. den went into my room, talk about SR people, about when i first became close friends with bei and how i make her angry, etc. hahaha. talked till about 11, mum came to tell us time is late. den they left, i walked them to my house side-gate... den walked from car park [cos it was dark at the pool compound area, and when sihui asked if i'll be scared walking back alone, i thought, i have God with me, i shouldn't be afraid, den suddenly i was like, shit, i wish i have a bf den he can walk me back sia, so scary, in the dark and the place looked eerie cos it's like gonna rain]...
'm talking to alica, talked about marriage. hahaha. yeah, she's right, long way to go. but i really hope my next relationship will be better. a lasting one, faithful one, loyal one, that's all i want. =] hahaha. plus point will be if he's got ideal shape and height and whatever i want my prince charming to be. hahaha.
PRINCE CHARMING where are you[i like this: All i wanted is a white knight, with a good heart, soft touch, fast horse; run me off into the sunset, and Baby i'm YOURS!!! hahaha, so sweet right]... hahaha. i'm mad... alamak lar. yesterday sihui was saying that people say she's so boy, den like that i'm a man liao lar... and bei say people say she's fierce, sihui choked and said if that's the case then sihui'd be SO SCARY and i'd be a LEGENDARY HORRIFYING DRAGON. harhar... idiot lar... =]
okay. i sian liao. i'm gonna post this. so baboon can see. haha.
Au Revoir world!!! =] huggies world!!! =]
my cd player's on; i like this song:"Light of the world, You stepped down into darkness, opened my eyes, let me see. Beauty that made this heart adore You, hope of a life spent with you... Here i am to worship, here i am to bow down, here i am to say that You're my God. You're altogether lovely, altogether worthy, altogether wonderful to me... King of all days, oh so highly exalted, Glorious in heaven above, humbly You came to the earth You created. All for love's sake became poor. i'll never know how much it cost, to see my sin upon that cross." =) nice right... yay. =]
now: finished eating my ba-zhang.
later: probably go for lunch with dad if not get him to ta-pao back... den probably go to CMS to practice my piano. afterwhich i THINK i will pop by to compasspoint, to get my hp pouch. yay. den 'll go see if XieLi is working, and see if KY is still working =) [=/ after all the things sha-shou did between KY and me, it feels so weird to see him, even though i wanna be his friend, like talk and everything, it just feels weird, like, not the same as last time anymore... and i don't want him to think i'm interested in him, cos i just wanna be his friend, but it's so awkward, i can't be his friend in peace when sha-shou is around. shit lar. haix... o well, i leave this to God =) hehe].
bei was telling me to pls change my earrings, i don't see why lar. that woman [i mean, that animal]... hm, i dunno lar, i told her i want something simple but can be appropriate for all events [be it going out, dinner, go market, go piano, at home] and that i can sleep with, so probably have to be something with the ring type...
omg [baboon's best friend is attached!!! wahaha.]
i like this lyric: "Draw me close to You, never let me go. I lay it all down again, to hear You say that I'm Your friend... You're all i want, You're all i ever needed, You're all i want, help me know You are near..." yep. God, please draw me close to You... =]
o ya, and yesterday bei was telling me that she's nocturnal, so she's a bat, and so batman's her bf. HAR HAR HAR... omg, laugh man... hahaha...
last night: running with bei and sihui: we ran in the evening [sihui came at 8, bei reached at about 8.20]. surprisingly bei didn't bring her hp with her. haha. den we went to run, bei was like DANCING lar, not running... idiot. and sihui was like DYING... hahaha... i was WALKING beside them... HAR HAR HAR... i was suaning them all the way, and they kept saying they're thirsty and i kept telling them to jump into the river beside and just drink, no need to pay. hahaha. we finished 2.6 km [WA... 2.6 lei... say "WOW!!!" hahaha]... hahaha. den went up to my place, drink water, me and bei ate ice-cream, hahaha. den went into my room, talk about SR people, about when i first became close friends with bei and how i make her angry, etc. hahaha. talked till about 11, mum came to tell us time is late. den they left, i walked them to my house side-gate... den walked from car park [cos it was dark at the pool compound area, and when sihui asked if i'll be scared walking back alone, i thought, i have God with me, i shouldn't be afraid, den suddenly i was like, shit, i wish i have a bf den he can walk me back sia, so scary, in the dark and the place looked eerie cos it's like gonna rain]...
'm talking to alica, talked about marriage. hahaha. yeah, she's right, long way to go. but i really hope my next relationship will be better. a lasting one, faithful one, loyal one, that's all i want. =] hahaha. plus point will be if he's got ideal shape and height and whatever i want my prince charming to be. hahaha.
PRINCE CHARMING where are you[i like this: All i wanted is a white knight, with a good heart, soft touch, fast horse; run me off into the sunset, and Baby i'm YOURS!!! hahaha, so sweet right]... hahaha. i'm mad... alamak lar. yesterday sihui was saying that people say she's so boy, den like that i'm a man liao lar... and bei say people say she's fierce, sihui choked and said if that's the case then sihui'd be SO SCARY and i'd be a LEGENDARY HORRIFYING DRAGON. harhar... idiot lar... =]
okay. i sian liao. i'm gonna post this. so baboon can see. haha.
Au Revoir world!!! =] huggies world!!! =]
Monday, May 5, 2008
to alicia
just talked to alicia the baboon. she's stressed, her baby got into smu, she hasn't received any letter yet. don't fret girl [i mean, animal], God had a plan for all of us. and just leave your worries with God and things will go well. =] i pray for u, in Jesus' name that whatever His plans are for you, the Holy Spirit will be with you to give u comfort and guidance. i'm here for u ah... =] huggies. =)
love u loads [i'm trying. hahaha]...
love u loads [i'm trying. hahaha]...
photos!!! =]
yay photos photos!!!
sibei the mad person.
us in the toilet. too bad, it's not the executive toilet. hahaha.
sibei and stef's scarf. bei went mad. indie-style. hahaha.
sibei and her new hairstyle. and me suffering camera blues.
bei the ghost. HAHAHA.
bei's scarf advertisement.
water bottle advertisement.
sibei the mad person.
us in the toilet. too bad, it's not the executive toilet. hahaha.
sibei and stef's scarf. bei went mad. indie-style. hahaha.
sibei and her new hairstyle. and me suffering camera blues.
bei the ghost. HAHAHA.
bei's scarf advertisement.
water bottle advertisement.
3 days at work
yoyo... =]
heyo... i've been great man... updates summary...
work with bei and mildred and stefanie: at company called Boardroom: we do registra for AGMs and EGMs and SGMs etc... so it's like write down name of shareholder, number of shares, ic number, den get signature [had super fun]. it's like - go to work, take cab, meeting, eat at reception, take cab back, lunch break, take cab out, meeting, eat at reception, take cab back, wait for 5.30 [or till bei comes back] den we can leave. SUPER COOL sia. take cab here take cab there. wa lao. sweet life man. hahaha. my supervisor is Margeret and my Senior Manager is May, they're both super cute. i remembered 2nd day at work, Margeret grabbed my hand and we dashed across the road towards the OCBC building, scared the guts outta me - i was in heels lar wa lao eh. harhar. third day FINALLY get to work with bei at UOB meeting at Marina Mandrin. so cool lar the food there. kinda miss the job now, a pity it's only for a few days. hahaha, i got my $150 pay in cash - CASH man!!! - and a box of Royce chocolates from May, so sweet lar she, she told Margeret that i'm so sweet and guai. hahaha. YAY. =] only thing that wasn't so pleasant at work is people throw pamphlets at you just cos they're bu-shuang or what shit, and the heels that almost kill your feet since u gotta rush here and there so fast and we walk like we're running 2.4 napfa test.
yay. uncle siew loong and antie daphne gave me a Beautiful Worship CD and gave mei mei a thingy that u hang up, saying "The Lord is my Shephard ..."; so sweet ah... =]
and that bei got me hooked on sudoku, since i started on it on the 2nd day of work. hahaha. after that third day we went to eat at compass point and i used my pay to buy one book, the number 2 volume [yay, my favourite number. 2! =) wahaha]. den i bought an anklet [i intend to get another thingy to hang there, wth issit called. o ya, a pendant. shit me lar]. booked this hp pouch from the antie at compasspoint, gonna get it tues [that's tmr actually, YAY].
friday: cell group @ St. Paul Church: we started late i guess, cos they had to have dinner first since they're hungry, took a long time to eat, drag here there [actually i didn't notice lar, but i guess that's why we started late and ended SO late]. Alex led the ice-breaking and discussion, den went out to pray for each other [ruoping and sheena had to pray for each other and then me, since i didn't know how to pray for people, hahaha, i'm new lar] den we went back in to do closing prayers. ended at 11 plus man. i was shocked, 5 missed calls. i called and mum was like angry, she came to fetch me [sis told me wrong place and i had to cross back over to simon road from heartland mall side] den was like fuming silently in the car. i didn't apologise, cos i didn't think it's my fault that they ended late. went to sleep, woke up hungry [at like 1 am] and went to eat cookies with chocolate milk [wa lao, so pathetic lar].
saturday: at home: so sian lar. waste my time. sis went to SR musical. about evening, went gramma's house. sis was there after musical already. super hot day. SCORCHING hot.
sunday: BK breakfast at compasspoint: i ate the bacon thingy. den went off. i went toilet den popped by at bossini to see ex-colleagues, den i went off towards church. i was early. saw jinrong, pastor gary, yan hao and this guy lionel there talking. i told jinrong about the sim acceptance letter i got, dunno what to do etc. she asked about my CCA thing, she was from PL band under Mr Tan BW too [so cool right. hahaha, small world] and she said wow when i told her i was student conductor [-.-], den she told me lionel, he's sec 4, is a euphoniun player, i was like, oh i see. went in, had service, joseph was there and etc etc. i saw sharleen, alone again, i dunno why. den rachel and jasmine and pauline and 2 new guys. leon was like on time for service. sheena that woman never come, pangseh me. hahaha... lunch with church friends: went to eat at the place they call 7-11, apparently it's this coffee shop near 7-11. den rachel asked me to study with them later, help them with lit and math and art. den this Abel, a tall guy [that i got not-so-good impression of], said something about HIHS [WTH LAR say my school lousy, that asshole, stupid male chauvenist pig] and rachel told me, i was like GLARE-at-him. found out he's from SA, so fine lor. him, clement or whomever and the benson guy [who kept passing the basketball to me when we played, at my first time at church] were the SA gang and hung out with Sharleen and heard some unpleasant stuff. hmmm. well. not new to me lar. rachel had hard time looking for place at Mac, so i told her, tell Sharleen we go church study, if she don't want or she scold you pass the phone to me. and done deal. [i'm so pro] we went back to church, study. Sharleen came back like so late and was with the Clement guy, [seebeh act cool] Sharleen was like showing off her beginner skills at keyboard canon in c, so i totally chu-jue-zhao [that means to show my expertise, wahaha, i'm so horrible] and i told her how many thousand mistakes she made [but seriously she totally had zero sense of rhythm lar, i think even polar bears can play better than her], in front of her Clement, den i played for her, perfecto. HAHAHA [yay for me].
helped rachel with art, i read the lit text but too bad no time to teach. i had to go off. ruth had headache, vomit out water in the morning. den i went off, dinner with family at kovan coffee shop, buy bread den go home.
went down to walk, one whole family, i missed my marching so so so so so [SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO] much... i test sis on her bio while walking. haiya, why didn't i get to see my shuai-ge running. [=/]
anyway, i'm gonna post the pictures that we took at work later. i go for lunch now. =]
Au Revoir!
=] byby.
heyo... i've been great man... updates summary...
work with bei and mildred and stefanie: at company called Boardroom: we do registra for AGMs and EGMs and SGMs etc... so it's like write down name of shareholder, number of shares, ic number, den get signature [had super fun]. it's like - go to work, take cab, meeting, eat at reception, take cab back, lunch break, take cab out, meeting, eat at reception, take cab back, wait for 5.30 [or till bei comes back] den we can leave. SUPER COOL sia. take cab here take cab there. wa lao. sweet life man. hahaha. my supervisor is Margeret and my Senior Manager is May, they're both super cute. i remembered 2nd day at work, Margeret grabbed my hand and we dashed across the road towards the OCBC building, scared the guts outta me - i was in heels lar wa lao eh. harhar. third day FINALLY get to work with bei at UOB meeting at Marina Mandrin. so cool lar the food there. kinda miss the job now, a pity it's only for a few days. hahaha, i got my $150 pay in cash - CASH man!!! - and a box of Royce chocolates from May, so sweet lar she, she told Margeret that i'm so sweet and guai. hahaha. YAY. =] only thing that wasn't so pleasant at work is people throw pamphlets at you just cos they're bu-shuang or what shit, and the heels that almost kill your feet since u gotta rush here and there so fast and we walk like we're running 2.4 napfa test.
yay. uncle siew loong and antie daphne gave me a Beautiful Worship CD and gave mei mei a thingy that u hang up, saying "The Lord is my Shephard ..."; so sweet ah... =]
and that bei got me hooked on sudoku, since i started on it on the 2nd day of work. hahaha. after that third day we went to eat at compass point and i used my pay to buy one book, the number 2 volume [yay, my favourite number. 2! =) wahaha]. den i bought an anklet [i intend to get another thingy to hang there, wth issit called. o ya, a pendant. shit me lar]. booked this hp pouch from the antie at compasspoint, gonna get it tues [that's tmr actually, YAY].
friday: cell group @ St. Paul Church: we started late i guess, cos they had to have dinner first since they're hungry, took a long time to eat, drag here there [actually i didn't notice lar, but i guess that's why we started late and ended SO late]. Alex led the ice-breaking and discussion, den went out to pray for each other [ruoping and sheena had to pray for each other and then me, since i didn't know how to pray for people, hahaha, i'm new lar] den we went back in to do closing prayers. ended at 11 plus man. i was shocked, 5 missed calls. i called and mum was like angry, she came to fetch me [sis told me wrong place and i had to cross back over to simon road from heartland mall side] den was like fuming silently in the car. i didn't apologise, cos i didn't think it's my fault that they ended late. went to sleep, woke up hungry [at like 1 am] and went to eat cookies with chocolate milk [wa lao, so pathetic lar].
saturday: at home: so sian lar. waste my time. sis went to SR musical. about evening, went gramma's house. sis was there after musical already. super hot day. SCORCHING hot.
sunday: BK breakfast at compasspoint: i ate the bacon thingy. den went off. i went toilet den popped by at bossini to see ex-colleagues, den i went off towards church. i was early. saw jinrong, pastor gary, yan hao and this guy lionel there talking. i told jinrong about the sim acceptance letter i got, dunno what to do etc. she asked about my CCA thing, she was from PL band under Mr Tan BW too [so cool right. hahaha, small world] and she said wow when i told her i was student conductor [-.-], den she told me lionel, he's sec 4, is a euphoniun player, i was like, oh i see. went in, had service, joseph was there and etc etc. i saw sharleen, alone again, i dunno why. den rachel and jasmine and pauline and 2 new guys. leon was like on time for service. sheena that woman never come, pangseh me. hahaha... lunch with church friends: went to eat at the place they call 7-11, apparently it's this coffee shop near 7-11. den rachel asked me to study with them later, help them with lit and math and art. den this Abel, a tall guy [that i got not-so-good impression of], said something about HIHS [WTH LAR say my school lousy, that asshole, stupid male chauvenist pig] and rachel told me, i was like GLARE-at-him. found out he's from SA, so fine lor. him, clement or whomever and the benson guy [who kept passing the basketball to me when we played, at my first time at church] were the SA gang and hung out with Sharleen and heard some unpleasant stuff. hmmm. well. not new to me lar. rachel had hard time looking for place at Mac, so i told her, tell Sharleen we go church study, if she don't want or she scold you pass the phone to me. and done deal. [i'm so pro] we went back to church, study. Sharleen came back like so late and was with the Clement guy, [seebeh act cool] Sharleen was like showing off her beginner skills at keyboard canon in c, so i totally chu-jue-zhao [that means to show my expertise, wahaha, i'm so horrible] and i told her how many thousand mistakes she made [but seriously she totally had zero sense of rhythm lar, i think even polar bears can play better than her], in front of her Clement, den i played for her, perfecto. HAHAHA [yay for me].
helped rachel with art, i read the lit text but too bad no time to teach. i had to go off. ruth had headache, vomit out water in the morning. den i went off, dinner with family at kovan coffee shop, buy bread den go home.
went down to walk, one whole family, i missed my marching so so so so so [SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO] much... i test sis on her bio while walking. haiya, why didn't i get to see my shuai-ge running. [=/]
anyway, i'm gonna post the pictures that we took at work later. i go for lunch now. =]
Au Revoir!
=] byby.
Sunday, April 27, 2008
throat woes
shit. walked from church in the afternoon today, and from hougang back home.
dry, scorching hot.
now, throat pain. cough.
shit myself.
tmr work. =/
dry, scorching hot.
now, throat pain. cough.
shit myself.
tmr work. =/
aftermath
i'm back. he threw away pretty much. spilled some vulgarities. made everybody unhappy.
God, i'm a Christian and i know You hear me for it is in Your Promise that You will always hear Your children's prayers. ever since my dad left his former job and started his own business, he spends very little and complains when we spend money. he downgrades himself verbally and he goes so hard on himself as if it's a bold thing to do. i knows my father believes in You. and for this reason, God i ask that You enter my father's life today, and let him follow a Christian life too; one that is faithful, righteous, loving, patient and one that is the most fulfilling walk of his life - a walk with You. i know i cannot control my father nor the way he thinks, but i hope that by being patient, respectful and obedient, You will work a wonder and fill my father's life. in Jesus' Name i pray, Amen.
now dad's pretty much okay. he showed me a red mark on his protruding tummy - from the hot iron just now. haix. i'm sad, and i'm crying and trying so hard to hide my tears. it's been a long time since i've been as upset as this. not upset, maybe more of sad. in a way disappointed that my father still behaves this way. but i know things will change.
"when the oceans rise and thunders roar, i will soar with You above the storm; Father You are King above the storm, i will be still and know You are God..." Still, by Hillsong.
Holy Spirit, give my comfort for now, and strength for tomorrow.
got abit of a throat irritation. haix. i shall go cheer myself up. work tomorrow. yay... =/... haix.
cheer up alli. come on. huggies to myself. =] yay. okay. i'm great now... =]
gtg. Au Revoir!!! =]
God, i'm a Christian and i know You hear me for it is in Your Promise that You will always hear Your children's prayers. ever since my dad left his former job and started his own business, he spends very little and complains when we spend money. he downgrades himself verbally and he goes so hard on himself as if it's a bold thing to do. i knows my father believes in You. and for this reason, God i ask that You enter my father's life today, and let him follow a Christian life too; one that is faithful, righteous, loving, patient and one that is the most fulfilling walk of his life - a walk with You. i know i cannot control my father nor the way he thinks, but i hope that by being patient, respectful and obedient, You will work a wonder and fill my father's life. in Jesus' Name i pray, Amen.
now dad's pretty much okay. he showed me a red mark on his protruding tummy - from the hot iron just now. haix. i'm sad, and i'm crying and trying so hard to hide my tears. it's been a long time since i've been as upset as this. not upset, maybe more of sad. in a way disappointed that my father still behaves this way. but i know things will change.
"when the oceans rise and thunders roar, i will soar with You above the storm; Father You are King above the storm, i will be still and know You are God..." Still, by Hillsong.
Holy Spirit, give my comfort for now, and strength for tomorrow.
got abit of a throat irritation. haix. i shall go cheer myself up. work tomorrow. yay... =/... haix.
cheer up alli. come on. huggies to myself. =] yay. okay. i'm great now... =]
gtg. Au Revoir!!! =]
i hate today
TODAY:
breakfast: McDonalds.
church: had Lord's Supper today. good sermon. =]
went home, went gramma's house, had lunch, den went to clean things up since she's arriving back late tonight from china. i magic-clean and mopped the floor.
home. dad's back from golf. he went was ironing. i went to bathe, he went downstairs. came up and got around to mop the floor, i got out of bathroom. went online. dad started his temper again. tempers or not, i don't know. whether he intended to hurt us or not, i don't think i wanna answer. he shouted and slammed the door. now he's gonna fucking throw my stuff away.
i gtg,
breakfast: McDonalds.
church: had Lord's Supper today. good sermon. =]
went home, went gramma's house, had lunch, den went to clean things up since she's arriving back late tonight from china. i magic-clean and mopped the floor.
home. dad's back from golf. he went was ironing. i went to bathe, he went downstairs. came up and got around to mop the floor, i got out of bathroom. went online. dad started his temper again. tempers or not, i don't know. whether he intended to hurt us or not, i don't think i wanna answer. he shouted and slammed the door. now he's gonna fucking throw my stuff away.
i gtg,
Friday, April 25, 2008
Thursday, April 24, 2008
my thurs at k-box
hello world...
TODAY: k-box with sihui the merlion and bei the squirrel: apparently this was a last min plan... [supposed to go running this morning with sihui, but when she reached my place about 9 it started to rain, and she had flu+cough and i had flu, hence we just sat in my room and chatted about future, if we don't go uni, can we afford a flat on our own and what to do with the masterbed room, har so random; sihui HAHAHA had to change her plans twice with adeline, so that in the end she could go K-box with me and squirrel since squirrel hasn't been before. felt so bad but what lar, she herself oso wanna go ma. so bathed at my place - she took like 40 minutes in the toilet man - afterwhich i bathed and we went to meet bei at hougang mall at about 1245. we ate at the food court - took pictures, lame ones, on my phone - and went downstairs to get drinks. met m-gomez and larissa at ntuc, and they freaking bor-hiu me. i was so freaking angry that i can't be bothered to be angry later on; they're teaching at HIHS and i answered that we were in SRJC and we applied for all 4 universities, and i was that LOOK on larissa's face and gomez's too. like pls man, sorry we're not smart but at least we got character and values. anyway we bought 3 bottles of mineral water for $0.80 - so cheap man - and bei bought green tea and some dog food, i went to get a Pearlie =). den we went toilet, finished one bottle of water first to lighten the weight, put the other 2 bottles in our bags, and off we went.] we walked to plaza, up and to k-box. we got there about 2. sang. bei sang not bad eh. too bad man, i was waiting to be impressed by a super celine-dion kinda voice, the strong and bold kind. hahaha. but well, expected lar, she's so gentle. [hm, i felt that there some kinds of occassional awkward silences or somethin' but, well, maybe the 2 of them have yet to bond.] soon after singing, merlion's voice started to sar3 [get husky] already [sexy huh, husky, hahaha.] and she had to sing in her funny and hilarious way. bei couldn't stop laughing. =) mad people. apparently she even ate SO MUCH chips and she said she felt better after that [i was like -.- wth. hahaha] and she can still try to sing. bei started off abit shy [dunno real or not, that violent woman, i mean animal] haha, sing so soft [and yet when she shout at me shout so loud, idiot] and demure; i think she needs her mike plugged in to an amplifier. HAHAHA. soon, sihui went mad; she saw her shuai-ge; apparently for some unknown reason she had an instinct he had quit, and she was high and as good as drunk. harhar. paid, left at 8 plus. went to mac [met couzin jasmine, and so surprisingly even to merlion jasmine remembers merlion from primary school], ate ice-cream [which sadly is my dinner] and den went home.
got scolded for not saying anything about phone prob - apparently sometimes, i mean SOMETIMES, i can't receive msgs from a particular person or at all. whatever. i went to bathe, and now, i'm online. =) to convert my Hillson cd to transfer them files to my phone. o man, i PRAY so hard i can sing like them =). yay. i shall do my best, and this i ask in Jesus' name.
yay. okay... i shall go clear my emails...
TMR:
TODAY: k-box with sihui the merlion and bei the squirrel: apparently this was a last min plan... [supposed to go running this morning with sihui, but when she reached my place about 9 it started to rain, and she had flu+cough and i had flu, hence we just sat in my room and chatted about future, if we don't go uni, can we afford a flat on our own and what to do with the masterbed room, har so random; sihui HAHAHA had to change her plans twice with adeline, so that in the end she could go K-box with me and squirrel since squirrel hasn't been before. felt so bad but what lar, she herself oso wanna go ma. so bathed at my place - she took like 40 minutes in the toilet man - afterwhich i bathed and we went to meet bei at hougang mall at about 1245. we ate at the food court - took pictures, lame ones, on my phone - and went downstairs to get drinks. met m-gomez and larissa at ntuc, and they freaking bor-hiu me. i was so freaking angry that i can't be bothered to be angry later on; they're teaching at HIHS and i answered that we were in SRJC and we applied for all 4 universities, and i was that LOOK on larissa's face and gomez's too. like pls man, sorry we're not smart but at least we got character and values. anyway we bought 3 bottles of mineral water for $0.80 - so cheap man - and bei bought green tea and some dog food, i went to get a Pearlie =). den we went toilet, finished one bottle of water first to lighten the weight, put the other 2 bottles in our bags, and off we went.] we walked to plaza, up and to k-box. we got there about 2. sang. bei sang not bad eh. too bad man, i was waiting to be impressed by a super celine-dion kinda voice, the strong and bold kind. hahaha. but well, expected lar, she's so gentle. [hm, i felt that there some kinds of occassional awkward silences or somethin' but, well, maybe the 2 of them have yet to bond.] soon after singing, merlion's voice started to sar3 [get husky] already [sexy huh, husky, hahaha.] and she had to sing in her funny and hilarious way. bei couldn't stop laughing. =) mad people. apparently she even ate SO MUCH chips and she said she felt better after that [i was like -.- wth. hahaha] and she can still try to sing. bei started off abit shy [dunno real or not, that violent woman, i mean animal] haha, sing so soft [and yet when she shout at me shout so loud, idiot] and demure; i think she needs her mike plugged in to an amplifier. HAHAHA. soon, sihui went mad; she saw her shuai-ge; apparently for some unknown reason she had an instinct he had quit, and she was high and as good as drunk. harhar. paid, left at 8 plus. went to mac [met couzin jasmine, and so surprisingly even to merlion jasmine remembers merlion from primary school], ate ice-cream [which sadly is my dinner] and den went home.
got scolded for not saying anything about phone prob - apparently sometimes, i mean SOMETIMES, i can't receive msgs from a particular person or at all. whatever. i went to bathe, and now, i'm online. =) to convert my Hillson cd to transfer them files to my phone. o man, i PRAY so hard i can sing like them =). yay. i shall do my best, and this i ask in Jesus' name.
yay. okay... i shall go clear my emails...
TMR:
- piano 3.30 to 4.40 @CMS.
- practice piano before and after.
- cell group @ St. Paul Church at 7.30 till 9++.
- pls return library books allison, the one with pictures of FANTASTIC cakes and one on Elle designer homes.
Wednesday, April 23, 2008
23.4.08 home alone
hello everybody... =]
YESTERDAY: out with alicia the baboon and sibei the squirrel: harhar, we went to this japanese restaurant to eat, buffet, like with conveyor belt and off-menu dishes all in the buffet set... WA... super fantastico marvelouso de nice to eat [wth is wrong with my english] man!!! =]
above: our table of craving-fulfillers... HAR HAR HAR...
above: FOOOOOOOOD man... harhar...
we practically ate and ate, and that stupid baboon go order some 6 pieces of that stupid bacon-mushroom thingy and it came in 6 STICKS instead, and i ate a total of 10... -.- yeah man... see my tummy bloat man... har har... den we went vivo to shop!!!!!!... went into forever 21, den topshop, den mango... i bought a S$43 dress from F21, alicia bought a black tube top from F21, bei bought a black razor back from MNG... harhar, i'm still thinking if i wanna buy that MNG top too, cos i like the colour and etc, but i was thinking don't wanna buy it cos of the brand or just cos i like MNG etc... [and besides i already spent 43 bucks man... hm, still thinking - if only i can spend my pay...] den we went candy empire before we went home... and sihui called me and kept apologising for calling [i was like, dots...] and asked about her swim suit thingy... alicia bought some biscuits and the Cadbury chocolate milk... =] the milk tastes superb sia... i'm so gonna buy it soon. =]
hm... yesterday after vivo came back and had dinner still... harhar... i'm such a pig... anyway mum cooked something like pork [or was it chicken, i dunno lar...] and it smelt SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO delicious and tasted SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO good... hua... good man... real good... =] wa ha ha...
THE REST OF THE WEEK:
YESTERDAY: out with alicia the baboon and sibei the squirrel: harhar, we went to this japanese restaurant to eat, buffet, like with conveyor belt and off-menu dishes all in the buffet set... WA... super fantastico marvelouso de nice to eat [wth is wrong with my english] man!!! =]
above: our table of craving-fulfillers... HAR HAR HAR...
above: shiok sia... that's baboon's hand...
above: FOOOOOOOOD man... harhar...
above: this is that bacon-mushroom thing that alicia ordered 18 pieces of... -.-
above: L to R: alicia's sprite, bei's watermelon juice, my f&n grapes.
we practically ate and ate, and that stupid baboon go order some 6 pieces of that stupid bacon-mushroom thingy and it came in 6 STICKS instead, and i ate a total of 10... -.- yeah man... see my tummy bloat man... har har... den we went vivo to shop!!!!!!... went into forever 21, den topshop, den mango... i bought a S$43 dress from F21, alicia bought a black tube top from F21, bei bought a black razor back from MNG... harhar, i'm still thinking if i wanna buy that MNG top too, cos i like the colour and etc, but i was thinking don't wanna buy it cos of the brand or just cos i like MNG etc... [and besides i already spent 43 bucks man... hm, still thinking - if only i can spend my pay...] den we went candy empire before we went home... and sihui called me and kept apologising for calling [i was like, dots...] and asked about her swim suit thingy... alicia bought some biscuits and the Cadbury chocolate milk... =] the milk tastes superb sia... i'm so gonna buy it soon. =]
hm... yesterday after vivo came back and had dinner still... harhar... i'm such a pig... anyway mum cooked something like pork [or was it chicken, i dunno lar...] and it smelt SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO delicious and tasted SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO good... hua... good man... real good... =] wa ha ha...
THE REST OF THE WEEK:
- practice piano.
- study bible.
- pack my room.
- excercise with sihui on thurs.
- sunday go church!!! =] yay.
- prepare for work on mon-tues-wed.
NOW/TODAY: i'm eating ba-zhang... =] dad bought 2 for me before he went for golf today... later i'm going to bossini 803 again to pei weicai and xieli eat lunch... after which i go down to Cristofori MSFA [hougang] to practice... =]
hmmm... i just read bei's blog... HAR HAR... idiot... light as a feather... hahaha... and she's so skinny already, still wish to slim down, siao... ME? i wish to put on weight... =] harhar...
o ya, i'm going for Hillsong concert in may!!! YES YES YES... yay... thanks Sheena for inviting me... =]
okay... byby... =] Au Revoir... [p.s. i love lumpy and tigger =]... i just gave brother tigger a wash with sis, laugh like hell in the toilet, hahaha... brother's dry already!!! yay. ]
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